Originally posted 2020-10-20 08:00:00.
My nephew CJ’s birthday was October 17th and my momma’s is October 20th.
They may be gone in the physical sense but never forgotten.
It’s barely been 10 months since CJ’s passing and almost 2 and a half years for since my momma passed away.
It is hard “celebrating” their birthday when they aren’t here.
I know my momma would want us to celebrate and have fun, drink a beer and just be happy.
But it is hard to do so when all you want to do is cry.
My bff threw a party Saturday for CJ but another one of her friends wanted to celebrate her child’s birthday too.
It just didn’t feel right to me and my husband so we kind of just stayed over here and didn’t attend.
I told my bff why we didn’t come over and she understood what I meant. At least that’s what she said.
We all grieve and different ways.
I feel like it was more of a distraction for her. It kept her from crying all day.
Her hubby didn’t seem like he could take it either and was not in attendance. I can’t say I blame him.
I think he was gone riding his motorcycle the entire day.
My daughter came down too but she stayed over here majority of the time.
That’s probably a good thing because she’s pregnant and moody, lol.
There were other people’s children and some have a sass mouth on them and my daughter probably would have said something their parent didn’t like.
I didn’t play with that sass talking raising her and it shows.
I joked with my daughter recently and asked her about how my grandbaby is going to be spoiled and she agreed. Then I said but is she going to be a spoiled brat. She replied, “she’s going to be well-behaved and have manners”.
Some of these kids I see nowadays have a mouth like an adult and that’s just something we were taught not to do.
My momma would have killed me, lol.
Happy Birthday Mom and CJ.
We love you and miss you both!