Originally posted 2019-07-04 09:06:45. You know I have been thinking alot more since the passing of my mother, June 21 2018. I miss her so much. My son, Dusty, talks about her ALOT. It is hard to hear him talk about her. I mean it is good thoughts but it is painful to hear. With me trying to heal and deal with life without her… it feels like scab being ripped from your skin. One…
Originally posted 2018-08-29 14:18:59. I have been in a slump since my momma passed away. I know I still have alot to be thankful for but I feel like I have lost my will to carry on. Now don’t mistake that for me being suicidal, because I am not. I just don’t have the same – umph – per say to live like I did before. Does that makes sense? I quit… just literally abandoned…
Originally posted 2019-06-21 17:37:19. Do you know how hard it is to grieve with someone around you watching you every second of the day? I know I will miss this one day when he’s gone but I feel like I can’t do what I need to do for me in order to “protect him” Today in 2018 my mother lost her fight. She when down quick but not without fight. Things lay on my mind…
Originally posted 2018-08-16 09:20:03. Death can be a hard one to explain to someone with austim. I know Dusty doesn’t quite understand what it means so when I found this article I thought I would share. What do you think? http://blog.stageslearning.com/blog/autism-helping-understanding-death
Originally posted 2020-08-21 07:51:17. My dream last night, if I can recall correctly had my 90 yr plus old grandmother. I don’t remember who all was there in my dream but I kept hearing Vince Gill’s version of Go Rest High on That Mountain. Now that’s all I hear in my head and it’s honestly unsettling. With all the loved ones we have lost in recent years it’s left me on edge, wondering who’s next.…
Originally posted 2020-08-16 18:39:26. My momma’s death has taken an even bigger toll on Dusty. He would always get at the very least a phone call and a card from my momma and my step father.He hasn’t even gotten a call or anything from my step father since my momma passed June 21, 2018. He just turned 27yrs old. He may be autistic but he has feelings too and they don’t understand why he hasn’t…
Originally posted 2014-04-21 14:57:42. My husband and I met online. Funny thing is I messaged him asking him if he was even old enough to be on the site. He did not look old enough at all. We hit it off. I was living about 3 hours away from him. He was in the Marine Corps at the time. Somehow he managed to come see me nearly every weekend. With the…
Originally posted 2020-08-09 09:42:05. These past few days have hit me like a ton of bricks. It’s like my momma died all over again. I want to be with her so bad to the point that I even wrote a will. I need her. I need to talk to her. I woke up yesterday morning with someone in my ear telling me to play them some music. Could it have been my brother since it…
Originally posted 2017-12-05 14:09:25. This past month has seriously been a blur. It’s been a little more than a month when I think about it. If you go back to October when I had my mini-stroke so that’s almost 2 months. Geez… Biological father passed away on November 14th. Dusty and I had gotten up early that morning to make the trip to see him when the so-called girlfriend called me to tell me he…
Originally posted 2017-11-17 10:06:19. I got a phone call from my bio father’s “girlfriend” just a bit ago. He has been in the hospital for several weeks now. It seems last night he took a turn for the worse. He stopped wanting to eat ~ even if being fed. They are considering a feeding tube. He spiked a fever of 102 and feel that he may have a touch of pneumonia. So they have started…