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My Soul

My Soul hurts as today, June 14th 2025, marks one year since my Chewy has been gone. I know he isn’t hurting anymore. He isn’t suffering from the agressive cancer that ravaged his body, but it hurts so much that it is hard to even explain. His loss has changed me. I love dogs but it has left me no wanting to “fill that hole”. I hope those of you reading this understand what I…

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Eye In The Sky

Originally posted 2019-01-26 01:27:06. I woke up this morning with the song Eye In The Sky by The Alan Parsons Project on repeat in my head. I don’t know if it was my momma trying to tell me something or if it was just a coincidence. Do you ever wake up with songs in your head or out of the blue it pops in your head? Do you wonder why? I know in my heart…

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Sweet difficulties

This past few weeks have been an absolute tollercoaster of epic proportions. From happy to sad from mad to sad then excited to absolutely amazing then by the end of it all… numbing. We have been going back and forth to my mom’s house to clear everything out. It’s being sold, even though I don’t really want it to be, but there are other people involved, so I don’t hold the sole decision. My stepfather…

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This…

Originally posted 2020-01-30 09:00:29. I can to relate to this right now. With so many things that have changed in a little time I want to remember the good times but when I do I feel like I am messing with the healing process. I know life goes on. Hell … I am haven’t even gone back to my mothers house since she passed away. I can’t. How do you get past certain things? It…

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Film Friday – What Dreams May Come

Originally posted 2020-01-10 10:48:30. THIS MOVIE HITS SO CLOSE TO HOME Have you ever see the movie, What Dreams May Come? I was scanning through the tv channels looking for a movie or show to watch this morning and came across it. I have seen it before but for some reason this morning it took a more personal meaning. I worry about my family. Not saying this is their reality I just don’t want it…

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How to start healing?

Originally posted 2020-01-03 12:45:35. How do you start healing after this? I had to walk over to the pond they went in. I thought that would have brought me some closure but it unfortunately didn’t help. I told my my bff (who is their momma) that I thought it would help me. Last time I saw them I saw all 4 kids, their momma and their daddy. Now we see them and then don’t see…

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What Title?

Originally posted 2019-12-30 07:38:22. Yeah, I wasn’t in a mood to try to figure out a fitting title this morning. As I sit here waiting for my pain medications to kick in I was just thinking. Though that’s hard for some of us natural blonde’s 😉 It started in 2017. My husband lost his grandmother so we went to Tampa to be with family. To celebrate her life, the matriarchal legacy. Even though I knew…

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Triggering Grief

Originally posted 2021-04-23 09:00:00. A couple of mornings ago my bff and I went to find strawberries. We found them and a few other goodies. When we came back my husband wasn’t himself. It was Luther Vandross’s birthday. My husband’s father loved Luther Vandross’s music. For whatever reason it hit him like a ton of bricks and it burst into tears. He had a really off day. He hasn’t really grieved since he passed 2…

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Can I confide in you?

Originally posted 2018-12-08 21:29:22. I need to I guess just vent but more than that. I am struggling, emotionally, mentally… I feel like I have fallen down in a hole of darkness. I still see light but the things I once enjoyed just aren’t as bright. I wanted to put up Christmas decorations but we don’t currently have a tree. No big deal because I also feel like I don’t want it up or anything…

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She passed peacefully

My “step grandmother” passed peacefully. Unfortunately, no one bothered to tell us she did. So we were unable to attend any of the viewings she had scheduled. My aunt wasn’t even told she passed. She is in the mountains of North Carolina so she would have had to have known alot sooner than I. But she’s now up there with my grandpa, who if you recall (or if I even posted about it) unfortunately committed…

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