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Heirlooms

Originally posted 2018-06-28 18:19:05. I know some of you are wondering what happened. Well… my mama lost her fight with cancer. She had small cell lung cancer, one of the most aggressive I’m told. Her kidneys started failing and no matter what they did they didn’t gain traction in the right direction. I apologize as I just can’t tell the story just. Too soon. But we just picked up the dogs from the kennel and…

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Scammed

Originally posted 2020-05-01 06:13:19. If you remember the passing of my nephews, CJ and Tey, you might remember that they were being cremated and placed in custom urns. Welll… not so fast. After repeated calls and inquiries it appears the urns aren’t even available. They original origin of said urns was either India or China. We have been waiting since December and this should not take this long. The family would like to be able…

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Why does it hurt

Originally posted 2019-02-16 18:29:30. Can someone explain to me why this hurts so freaking much?! I watched the man who I share his DNA, who may not have been a father but he was my father. Then 7 months or so later have to watch my mother, the woman who brought me into this world, carried my through this world in so many different ways. Who I miss more than life itself. I want to…

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The yearning

It’s been 5 years momma since I watched you take your last breathe. Not a day goes by that you don’t cross my mind. I make sure to touch your urn every single day of my life. Watching you leave the earth so unjustly, with the pain of a thousand knives you left without me.So many things left unsaid, not done, that I struggle with. So many memories have dimmed in my mind as I…

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Eye In The Sky

Originally posted 2019-01-26 01:27:06. I woke up this morning with the song Eye In The Sky by The Alan Parsons Project on repeat in my head. I don’t know if it was my momma trying to tell me something or if it was just a coincidence. Do you ever wake up with songs in your head or out of the blue it pops in your head? Do you wonder why? I know in my heart…

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This…

Originally posted 2020-01-30 09:00:29. I can to relate to this right now. With so many things that have changed in a little time I want to remember the good times but when I do I feel like I am messing with the healing process. I know life goes on. Hell … I am haven’t even gone back to my mothers house since she passed away. I can’t. How do you get past certain things? It…

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