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Her first in heaven

Originally posted 2018-10-19 15:00:08. My momma’s first birthday in heaven is tomorrow, October 20th. She would have been 69 years young. Oh God how I miss her so. I know this gets easier over time but I wish that time was now. My husband has been trying so hard to keep me from falling into a deeper hole that I have been steadily crawling into. I just miss her so much. Just simply talking to…

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Grief is f’n hard

Originally posted 2024-06-21 08:04:30. Today, in 2018, was the last day my momma spoke. Today is the day she started that rapid decline. Today is the last day my momma spoke to me. Today is the day that beautiful soul who I called mom, said her goodbyes. Today is the day my world was hit by a cat 5 of emotions. Today is the day my world started falling apart.

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Happy Heavenly Birthday Momma and CJ

Originally posted 2020-10-20 08:00:00. My nephew CJ’s birthday was October 17th and my momma’s is October 20th. They may be gone in the physical sense but never forgotten. It’s barely been 10 months since CJ’s passing and almost 2 and a half years for since my momma passed away. It is hard “celebrating” their birthday when they aren’t here. I know my momma would want us to celebrate and have fun, drink a beer and…

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In my thoughts

Originally posted 2019-07-04 09:06:45. You know I have been thinking alot more since the passing of my mother, June 21 2018. I miss her so much. My son, Dusty, talks about her ALOT. It is hard to hear him talk about her. I mean it is good thoughts but it is painful to hear. With me trying to heal and deal with life without her… it feels like scab being ripped from your skin. One…

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I lost the words

Originally posted 2019-06-21 17:37:19. Do you know how hard it is to grieve with someone around you watching you every second of the day? I know I will miss this one day when he’s gone but I feel like I can’t do what I need to do for me in order to “protect him” Today in 2018 my mother lost her fight. She when down quick but not without fight. Things lay on my mind…

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Who has a mom crush??

Originally posted 2017-05-12 23:44:24. Are you guilty too? I think we all have these moments. You scroll and see someone with gorgeous hair, legs for days, boobs perfectly perky even after having the modern day equivalent of the Brady Bunch. Oh well… we live, we learn, and we LAUGH! Yummm now I want a cupcake  [sce emoji=”cake”/], and I can’t I have a doctor’s appointment tomorrow.

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Morning Visions

Originally posted 2020-07-22 08:00:28. When I woke up this morning I awoke to the image of my momma laying there on the hospital bed in front of me… passed away. Looking like an angelic figure here on earth. That’s the last image of my momma I have. I begged my husband to let me go with her and to this day there is a big part of me that still wants to go with her.…

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School Year Sanity

Originally posted 2020-07-10 10:54:07. With the upcoming school year being undetermined for some and determined for others you will need to keep your sanity prepared!Do it with a multitude of things not just beer thirty, lol My recommendations, 1 Now & Zen Roll-On / Meditative Essential Oil – Find your inner zen no matter where life takes you. This peaceful essential oil blend mixes gentle lavender and marjoram with warm, lush ho wood and vanilla.…

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