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Comfortably Numb

Originally posted 2020-02-29 08:32:10. This is where I am right now. As much as I smile to hide through the pain this is me. I will admit it. It’s like I am almost not even feeling things the way I would normally. Am I depressed? Maybe so. I am not suicidal even though I will admit that after my momma’s passing all I wanted to do was be with her. The moment she passed I…

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Burned In

Originally posted 2023-05-12 08:25:25. I started my Friday like any other day. I looked for something to watch, or play in the background as I did my work on my computer. I listen and watch the tv but never really get into what is playing because I am working and my main focus in on my computer. I found something to watch, it was called “Evil Lives Here, Shadows of Death”. I found it on…

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Sweet difficulties

This past few weeks have been an absolute tollercoaster of epic proportions. From happy to sad from mad to sad then excited to absolutely amazing then by the end of it all… numbing. We have been going back and forth to my mom’s house to clear everything out. It’s being sold, even though I don’t really want it to be, but there are other people involved, so I don’t hold the sole decision. My stepfather…

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This…

Originally posted 2020-01-30 09:00:29. I can to relate to this right now. With so many things that have changed in a little time I want to remember the good times but when I do I feel like I am messing with the healing process. I know life goes on. Hell … I am haven’t even gone back to my mothers house since she passed away. I can’t. How do you get past certain things? It…

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Psycharmor

Originally posted 2018-05-10 16:05:30. Ever needed to brush up some certain skill sets but didn’t have the access to the courses? It is especially hard for certain people that do not have the time much less the access. This is where PsychArmor can bridge that gap. I have taken a few at this point and still working on taking more of the courses offered. No time constraints, no fees, no babysitters, just you and a…

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Don’t remember part deuce

Originally posted 2023-03-26 18:17:06. So… I was talking to my daughter. Not sure how we got on the subject but it is what it is. We were talking some of the things that occurred while we were in Las Vegas and California. She was asking me if I remembered some of the crazy shit that happened in Vegas. Of course… I didn’t. I really wish I knew why I don’t remember things. Maybe it’s a…

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Worried Tears

Originally posted 2020-01-13 18:00:01. I have back surgery in the morning. 5:30am check-in. I could use your prayers. This is my 25th (or 26th I lost count) surgery and I am more nervous about this one than any of them. Maybe it’s me getting older or the fact that I buried my dad Nov 2017, my mom June 2018, my husband’s dog Charlie Feb 2019, & just a couple of weeks ago my nephews CJ…

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Film Friday – What Dreams May Come

Originally posted 2020-01-10 10:48:30. THIS MOVIE HITS SO CLOSE TO HOME Have you ever see the movie, What Dreams May Come? I was scanning through the tv channels looking for a movie or show to watch this morning and came across it. I have seen it before but for some reason this morning it took a more personal meaning. I worry about my family. Not saying this is their reality I just don’t want it…

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How to start healing?

Originally posted 2020-01-03 12:45:35. How do you start healing after this? I had to walk over to the pond they went in. I thought that would have brought me some closure but it unfortunately didn’t help. I told my my bff (who is their momma) that I thought it would help me. Last time I saw them I saw all 4 kids, their momma and their daddy. Now we see them and then don’t see…

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