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Worried Tears

Originally posted 2020-01-13 18:00:01. I have back surgery in the morning. 5:30am check-in. I could use your prayers. This is my 25th (or 26th I lost count) surgery and I am more nervous about this one than any of them. Maybe it’s me getting older or the fact that I buried my dad Nov 2017, my mom June 2018, my husband’s dog Charlie Feb 2019, & just a couple of weeks ago my nephews CJ…

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Film Friday – What Dreams May Come

Originally posted 2020-01-10 10:48:30. THIS MOVIE HITS SO CLOSE TO HOME Have you ever see the movie, What Dreams May Come? I was scanning through the tv channels looking for a movie or show to watch this morning and came across it. I have seen it before but for some reason this morning it took a more personal meaning. I worry about my family. Not saying this is their reality I just don’t want it…

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How to start healing?

Originally posted 2020-01-03 12:45:35. How do you start healing after this? I had to walk over to the pond they went in. I thought that would have brought me some closure but it unfortunately didn’t help. I told my my bff (who is their momma) that I thought it would help me. Last time I saw them I saw all 4 kids, their momma and their daddy. Now we see them and then don’t see…

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What Title?

Originally posted 2019-12-30 07:38:22. Yeah, I wasn’t in a mood to try to figure out a fitting title this morning. As I sit here waiting for my pain medications to kick in I was just thinking. Though that’s hard for some of us natural blonde’s 😉 It started in 2017. My husband lost his grandmother so we went to Tampa to be with family. To celebrate her life, the matriarchal legacy. Even though I knew…

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Flashbacks

Originally posted 2014-04-15 18:59:26. Flashbacks, in one word can bring you to your knees. Over the years I have been affected by three house fires. The first was November 1994, 34 degrees and it was raining. The day and time are not as vivid in my mind anymore. This was the one was while I was still with the biological father and his family. The power had been out for several weeks at that point and…

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I just can’t

Originally posted 2023-01-19 19:14:18. This morning I woke like any other day, nothing different. My husband gets up and starts getting ready for work like any other day… He was driving our truck to work because I had a doctors appointment today. He goes to start the truck and quiet as a mouse. It wasn’t starting. UGHHHH. But that’s not what this post is about… I get coffee, take some of my morning medications… Dogs…

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Veteran Spotlight

Meet Joy

Originally posted 2019-11-24 11:00:30. “My dad passed away and before he passed he picked up an art brush and he painted. He has painted some amazing pieces. So when he passed I drew a humming bird then I was looking at the humming bird and another memory came to me and another one. So I started my first piece in memory of my dad. Since I’ve done multiple pieces each represents someone’s stories. I’ve also…

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Triggering Grief

Originally posted 2021-04-23 09:00:00. A couple of mornings ago my bff and I went to find strawberries. We found them and a few other goodies. When we came back my husband wasn’t himself. It was Luther Vandross’s birthday. My husband’s father loved Luther Vandross’s music. For whatever reason it hit him like a ton of bricks and it burst into tears. He had a really off day. He hasn’t really grieved since he passed 2…

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