Originally posted 2020-01-03 12:45:35.
How do you start healing after this?
I had to walk over to the pond they went in. I thought that would have brought me some closure but it unfortunately didn’t help.
I told my my bff (who is their momma) that I thought it would help me.
Last time I saw them I saw all 4 kids, their momma and their daddy. Now we see them and then don’t see CJ and Tey.
I just can’t believe it. I still haven’t grieved my momma and now my nephews. Even my daughter feels the same. We just can’t take anymore deaths right now.
I haven’t been able to even go back to my momma’s house because well… I just can’t handle it.
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