Originally posted 2020-01-13 18:00:01.
I have back surgery in the morning.
I could use your prayers. This is my 25th (or 26th I lost count) surgery and I am more nervous about this one than any of them.
Maybe it’s me getting older or the fact that I buried my dad Nov 2017, my mom June 2018, my husband’s dog Charlie Feb 2019, & just a couple of weeks ago my nephews CJ and Tey.
As much as I’d love to see them all again I am not ready to leave this life. I worry about my son. No one will care for him the way I do. No one for advocate for him that way I do. I worry what would happen.
I know I need to relax. My husband says I will be ok and he’s sure of it.
There are so many things I’d love to say to my mom. So many things I’d ask her.
I have to try to relax but finding it really hard to do. Plus the fact I can’t take certain medications and it’s raining… that ain’t helping the situation at all.
See you on the other side ❤