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There are words…

Originally posted 2020-03-20 21:26:45. There are words in my heart and mind that are desperately trying to get out. The news I learned today was supposed to be an extremely joyous one, truth is, it’s not. I suddenly felt this overwhelming feeling come over me, a feeling I can’t explain. It was sadness, grief, anger, and desperation. I feel so lost.I don’t know what to do… 😪😪😪

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The yearning

Originally posted 2023-06-21 06:27:16. It’s been 5 years momma since I watched you take your last breathe. Not a day goes by that you don’t cross my mind. I make sure to touch your urn every single day of my life. Watching you leave the earth so unjustly, with the pain of a thousand knives you left without me.So many things left unsaid, not done, that I struggle with. So many memories have dimmed in…

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My Soul

My Soul hurts as today, June 14th 2025, marks one year since my Chewy has been gone. I know he isn’t hurting anymore. He isn’t suffering from the agressive cancer that ravaged his body, but it hurts so much that it is hard to even explain. His loss has changed me. I love dogs but it has left me no wanting to “fill that hole”. I hope those of you reading this understand what I…

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Eye In The Sky

Originally posted 2019-01-26 01:27:06. I woke up this morning with the song Eye In The Sky by The Alan Parsons Project on repeat in my head. I don’t know if it was my momma trying to tell me something or if it was just a coincidence. Do you ever wake up with songs in your head or out of the blue it pops in your head? Do you wonder why? I know in my heart…

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This…

Originally posted 2020-01-30 09:00:29. I can to relate to this right now. With so many things that have changed in a little time I want to remember the good times but when I do I feel like I am messing with the healing process. I know life goes on. Hell … I am haven’t even gone back to my mothers house since she passed away. I can’t. How do you get past certain things? It…

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Making 28 more than special

Originally posted 2021-06-10 15:39:06. Hi y’all. Since my mom passed in 2018 my son’s birthday celebrations haven’t been the same. He will be 28 years old this year, on August 15th. I was hoping to make it a little different this year. I wanted to see if I could get him a t-shirt from every state of the United States and maybe even something from a different country. He likes word search books and goes…

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Worried Tears

Originally posted 2020-01-13 18:00:01. I have back surgery in the morning. 5:30am check-in. I could use your prayers. This is my 25th (or 26th I lost count) surgery and I am more nervous about this one than any of them. Maybe it’s me getting older or the fact that I buried my dad Nov 2017, my mom June 2018, my husband’s dog Charlie Feb 2019, & just a couple of weeks ago my nephews CJ…

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Film Friday – What Dreams May Come

Originally posted 2020-01-10 10:48:30. THIS MOVIE HITS SO CLOSE TO HOME Have you ever see the movie, What Dreams May Come? I was scanning through the tv channels looking for a movie or show to watch this morning and came across it. I have seen it before but for some reason this morning it took a more personal meaning. I worry about my family. Not saying this is their reality I just don’t want it…

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How to start healing?

Originally posted 2020-01-03 12:45:35. How do you start healing after this? I had to walk over to the pond they went in. I thought that would have brought me some closure but it unfortunately didn’t help. I told my my bff (who is their momma) that I thought it would help me. Last time I saw them I saw all 4 kids, their momma and their daddy. Now we see them and then don’t see…

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What Title?

Originally posted 2019-12-30 07:38:22. Yeah, I wasn’t in a mood to try to figure out a fitting title this morning. As I sit here waiting for my pain medications to kick in I was just thinking. Though that’s hard for some of us natural blonde’s 😉 It started in 2017. My husband lost his grandmother so we went to Tampa to be with family. To celebrate her life, the matriarchal legacy. Even though I knew…

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