I wish I could explain the feelings going through my veins. To have learned the things I have and to know the things weren’t as they seemed… the shear amount of disappoint is unbelievable. Now to have to deal with all of that is beyond irritating. There are family members that shouldn’t have to even go through this right now but yet here we are. Then another family member is MIA and holds truths that…
Well…. my dad passed away at first by a heart attack and now was told it was instead an aneurysm. The death certificate has not be signed off on as of this morning because for whatever reason, all 4 of my step siblings all have to physically be there to sign off on it. Why the eldest one can’t do it by himself I don’t know. Thankfully my aunt (technically step aunt) lives in our…
I lost the only father I have ever known, my children lost the only grandfather (or better known as Pa to them). I am going to say he is now reunited with my mother. I haven’t even come to terms with my mothers passing and now this. I feel hella guilty because I haven’t even been able to return to my mothers house since she passed and now this. I feel left behind. My momma,…
A few nights ago I had a weird dream. For some reason I dreamt that my mother was murdered. I am not sure if it was because I had been watching some of those shows where they talk about someone was murdered and they were trying to resolve it years later or not. In my dream I went to my mothers house. I will add that I have not been to my mothers house since…
What would you do? This was crazy! I don’t understand this ending at all. What do you think happened?
Originally posted 2020-03-20 21:26:45. There are words in my heart and mind that are desperately trying to get out. The news I learned today was supposed to be an extremely joyous one, truth is, it’s not. I suddenly felt this overwhelming feeling come over me, a feeling I can’t explain. It was sadness, grief, anger, and desperation. I feel so lost.I don’t know what to do… 😪😪😪
It’s been 5 years momma since I watched you take your last breathe. Not a day goes by that you don’t cross my mind. I make sure to touch your urn every single day of my life. Watching you leave the earth so unjustly, with the pain of a thousand knives you left without me.So many things left unsaid, not done, that I struggle with. So many memories have dimmed in my mind as I…
Originally posted 2019-01-26 01:27:06. I woke up this morning with the song Eye In The Sky by The Alan Parsons Project on repeat in my head. I don’t know if it was my momma trying to tell me something or if it was just a coincidence. Do you ever wake up with songs in your head or out of the blue it pops in your head? Do you wonder why? I know in my heart…
Originally posted 2020-01-30 09:00:29. I can to relate to this right now. With so many things that have changed in a little time I want to remember the good times but when I do I feel like I am messing with the healing process. I know life goes on. Hell … I am haven’t even gone back to my mothers house since she passed away. I can’t. How do you get past certain things? It…
Originally posted 2021-06-10 15:39:06. Hi y’all. Since my mom passed in 2018 my son’s birthday celebrations haven’t been the same. He will be 28 years old this year, on August 15th. I was hoping to make it a little different this year. I wanted to see if I could get him a t-shirt from every state of the United States and maybe even something from a different country. He likes word search books and goes…