I shoulder the pain

Originally posted 2019-07-07 09:05:19.

I woke up this morning feeling lost, missing my momma.

I know my bio father wasn’t really a father to me but losing him I feel I also lost a part of me as well. Then, to make matters worse….

I lost the man that was my “father”.

Not by death

I guess you’d say by choice. My heart hurts because I felt betrayed. I don’t know how to get past this. I am the one carrying this and feel like I need to do it for my momma.

God I need help… I want to let this go but I don’t know how. I just want my momma’s stuff and maybe that will help me just separate it from this but then again I don’t know.

All I have known for 31 years and I can’t just let it go easily.

I have tried to be respectful. Even to the point of ignoring him but I feel like for my momma’s sake I have to deal with this.

I mean damn it.

First someone steals my momma’s car the day after her memorial and I just can’t… ughhhh FUCK!

❤❤❤ USA, LLC

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