mental health

I lost the words

By |June 21st, 2019|Family|0 Comments

Do you know how hard it is to grieve with someone around you watching you every second of the day?

I know I will miss this one day when he’s gone but I feel like I can’t do what I need to do for me in order to “protect him”

Today in 2018 my mother lost […]

Circuits Overload

By |May 22nd, 2019|Family|0 Comments

This was a post from 2016 that never got published lol

Have you ever felt as if your circuit board is on overload? Like the wires, connections in your body’s circuit board is on overload and at risk of burning out? Well that is where I am this week. James’s been at home because the […]

Mother’s Day

By |May 10th, 2019|Family|0 Comments

This is the first Mother’s Day without you. This is so hard. As I watch tv, listen to the radio, or even look at the newspaper or online all I see is Mother’s Day ads.
I keep looking away.
I want to avoid it like one would avoid the plague.
This is fucking hard. I told James […]

Snail’s pace

By |April 24th, 2019|Family|1 Comment

Grieving while being the mother and caregiver to someone with autism is hard as hell. Dusty watches me 24/7.

He sees me crying, mad, frustrated, etc I can’t escape. All the while trying to repair hurricane florence damage.

I have been going to my local massage envy every few weeks for a deep tissue […]

No one knows…

By |April 4th, 2019|Family|0 Comments

No one knows how my heart truly feels… […]

Recognizing signs of child’s anxiety

By |March 8th, 2019|Family|0 Comments

My son has anxiety. It is far more than just a bit of worry that can be soothed away with some reassuring words of encouragement. It plays a big part in his life, and it is important we take it seriously.

His worries seemed to grow as he was growing up. But at the time we […]

Originally posted 2017-08-19 14:39:16.

My heart is breaking

By |March 6th, 2019|Family|2 Comments

This will be the hardest thing I have ever done. I have to somehow suppress the expression on my face because Dusty is watching me like a hawk.

He knows something is up.

This hurts so much.

I don’t know how to let go of my mother. I don’t know how to live my life without her. […]

Originally posted 2018-06-15 14:38:27.

By |February 28th, 2019|Family|0 Comments

I need your prayers, miracles. My heart hurts and I just can’t do life without my momma. She is in the fight for life and I will likely not be on social media much. Her kidneys took a hit and need to heal in order for them to do any chemo or radiation. Cancer […]

Originally posted 2018-06-12 13:09:01.

The Big C

By |February 28th, 2019|Family|0 Comments

 
As I sit here looking of inspiration for each keystroke I hold back tears. The normal daily routine of getting my son up to take his medications doesn’t stop for anything. Hearing the words in my head over and over… CANCER…
My mother has beaten colorectal cancer just a few years ago. Her body still […]

Originally posted 2018-06-06 11:13:07.

By |February 16th, 2019|Family|0 Comments

Can someone explain to me why this hurts so freaking much?!

I watched the man who I share his DNA, who may not have been a father but he was my father.

Then 7 months or so later have to watch my mother, the woman who brought me into this world, carried my through this world […]

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