Originally posted 2019-05-10 07:28:23. This is the first Mother’s Day without you. This is so hard. As I watch tv, listen to the radio, or even look at the newspaper or online all I see is Mother’s Day ads. I keep looking away. I want to avoid it like one would avoid the plague. This is fucking hard. I told James I don’t want anything nor do anything. I am so not ready to face…
Originally posted 2017-12-05 14:09:25. This past month has seriously been a blur. It’s been a little more than a month when I think about it. If you go back to October when I had my mini-stroke so that’s almost 2 months. Geez… Biological father passed away on November 14th. Dusty and I had gotten up early that morning to make the trip to see him when the so-called girlfriend called me to tell me he…
Originally posted 2019-04-24 16:43:01. Grieving while being the mother and caregiver to someone with autism is hard as hell. Dusty watches me 24/7. He sees me crying, mad, frustrated, etc I can’t escape. All the while trying to repair hurricane florence damage. I have been going to my local massage envy every few weeks for a deep tissue massage. It has helped tremendously from a physical standpoint but not really helped mentally. I need an…
Originally posted 2023-10-06 12:56:05. I wish I could explain the feelings going through my veins. To have learned the things I have and to know the things weren’t as they seemed… the shear amount of disappoint is unbelievable. Now to have to deal with all of that is beyond irritating. There are family members that shouldn’t have to even go through this right now but yet here we are. Then another family member is MIA…
Originally posted 2023-10-04 08:58:58. Well…. my dad passed away at first by a heart attack and now was told it was instead an aneurysm. The death certificate has not be signed off on as of this morning because for whatever reason, all 4 of my step siblings all have to physically be there to sign off on it. Why the eldest one can’t do it by himself I don’t know. Thankfully my aunt (technically step…
Originally posted 2023-10-02 07:19:38. I lost the only father I have ever known, my children lost the only grandfather (or better known as Pa to them). I am going to say he is now reunited with my mother. I haven’t even come to terms with my mothers passing and now this. I feel hella guilty because I haven’t even been able to return to my mothers house since she passed and now this. I feel…
Originally posted 2023-09-01 08:45:05. A few nights ago I had a weird dream. For some reason I dreamt that my mother was murdered. I am not sure if it was because I had been watching some of those shows where they talk about someone was murdered and they were trying to resolve it years later or not. In my dream I went to my mothers house. I will add that I have not been to…
Originally posted 2023-08-15 07:28:17. What would you do? This was crazy! I don’t understand this ending at all. What do you think happened?
Originally posted 2020-03-20 21:26:45. There are words in my heart and mind that are desperately trying to get out. The news I learned today was supposed to be an extremely joyous one, truth is, it’s not. I suddenly felt this overwhelming feeling come over me, a feeling I can’t explain. It was sadness, grief, anger, and desperation. I feel so lost.I don’t know what to do… 😪😪😪