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TMI?

Originally posted 2023-03-02 14:22:38. Ok… warning for some this may be too much info for your liking. So… here I go. In the past couple weeks I have been having issues with several things. My left leg, groin, butt cheek, and top and bottom of my left foot. Then all of a sudden I started having issues with my bowels and bladder functions. My pain management doc had previously told me that if I had…

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Covid Massage

Originally posted 2021-04-28 09:00:00. I need a deep tissue massage from a Russian lady named Olga… At least she seems to know how to do it in the movies. I haven’t been able to get a true deep tissue massage in over a year. No offense to anyone who does them but the ones I have tried just don’t have enough pressure or whatever it is that seems to be missing. My chronic pain was…

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Physical start

Originally posted 2023-01-26 19:32:00. let me tell you something…. I started physical therapy yesterday and ughhh… the doc said I needed to do the “exercises” 5 out of 7 days a week. I know I had 2 back surgeries last year and my body reminded me of that too. I think my body from my last life sent a message too. I know I said previously that there is an upside to pain… just letting…

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Triggering Grief

Originally posted 2021-04-23 09:00:00. A couple of mornings ago my bff and I went to find strawberries. We found them and a few other goodies. When we came back my husband wasn’t himself. It was Luther Vandross’s birthday. My husband’s father loved Luther Vandross’s music. For whatever reason it hit him like a ton of bricks and it burst into tears. He had a really off day. He hasn’t really grieved since he passed 2…

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Rude Awakening

Originally posted 2023-01-12 09:30:37. This morning we were abruptly woken up by the dogs fighting for some reason. Now, Max, our eldest dog is approximately 16 years old. At least that is what we have estimated it at. Our daughter found him in 2007 and they estimated his age at around 6 months then. James and I have been together (as of June of this year) 16 years. So we always go off our anniversary…

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Needling

I tried some dry needling today. We don’t know how much and what exactly it will help, but it’s worth a try. He put needles in my leg and in the bottom of my foot. The one that went in my foot was definitely felt lol. The others weren’t really bothersome at all. I keep having issues with the front of my ankle. I have quite a bit of scar tissue in there, so I’m…

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Emotional forgiveness

Originally posted 2018-04-04 11:36:32. Have you ever seen a movie or video that was fictional but touched you so deeply internally? One that you felt on so many levels? There were so many parts of the movie that you personally felt like it was you they portrayed in the movie? Even if it wasn’t exactly aligned with your own life? For me, that is this movie. I cry tears of pain, anger, love, happiness and…

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Something’s missing

Ever wake up on Christmas morning and have that overwhelming feeling that something is missing? That is how is has felt this entire day. Now I admit my daughter and I had our issues on Thanksgiving. I don’t know how to get past that day. The fact my abuser and family are that close to my daughter, IT HURTS. But the feeling this morning was different. Is it because this is the first Christmas without…

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