Originally posted 2015-06-19 13:23:07. I have been reading posts from other domestic violence survivors in support groups. I see myself in so many of the stories I read. The intimidation, manipulation, the “love” the abusers claim they have for their victims. It kills me because as I remember all that I was told and all he claimed I was just so blind and made to believe what he was saying to me was out of…
Originally posted 2015-06-17 18:24:50. My life has been moving so slow it seemed the past week or so. Yet no time for things that needed that extra attention. My husband had slowed to an almost halt and trying to motivate him is beyond frustrating. He has no idea some of the things I say or do are to try to motivate him. He has kind of just gotten into this slump. He comes home talking…
Originally posted 2020-11-29 09:34:18. It hurts to visit my grandbaby. It hurts to see her, hear her when my daughter calls me via video. I had previously planned to visit yesterday but my heart had other plans. My momma should’ve been here. I know they say she’s here in spirit but it’s not the same. All I can do is think of my momma when we see her. There are still days when I want…
As much as it pains me to say it… My Chewy is gone 💔 This has my heart is a thousand pieces. It’s broken. My heart needs him back, happy, healthy and fucking CANCER FREE! I don’t know how to get by this pain. It feels exactly like it did after my momma passed away. I don’t know how to express just how much Chewy meant to me. He saved my life after my momma…
Originally posted 2022-06-17 08:00:00. I used to love 90s R & B music like Jodeci, but now I can’t listen to them, at all, and it sucks. You see when their album Forever My Lady came out I was with my kids bio/sperm donor, the abuser. We listened to alot of music and that album was one that was played, a lot. With so much of that time of my life tied to these songs…
Originally posted 2015-04-12 02:42:26. Post includes the audio of the attempted conversation with my bio father today. Smile! 🙂
Originally posted 2015-03-24 22:41:33. As I sit here I am overcome with different emotions as to what I have been dealing with the past week. I feel like I am in a made for television movie of Lifetime or some other channel. The picture below is a picture of my biological father. I was contacted last Tuesday by his friend/girlfriend informing me of his condition. He had already been in one facility and was transferred…
Originally posted 2015-01-20 13:16:42. https://linktr.ee/AmyMCarter That word can be both negative and positive when it is in our lives. For me it means the struggle of the things I have seen and can’t speak on out of the fear of the parties involved coming after me and my kids. I struggle with it daily. I have this part of me that says I if I say something about the secret I am referring to I…
Originally posted 2019-07-19 19:59:13. It’s been a little over a year since my momma’s passing. I haven’t been back to my momma’s house since. I have kept this in and I need to let it out. It is literally killing me. My life is spent living it day by day, minute by minute. Living my life one breath at a time waiting for the next big thing. First my bio father, then my mom. But…I…
Originally posted 2015-01-22 17:09:08. Side Effects. The two words can have a lot of meanings to everyone. They take own different meanings depending on the subject. There are side effects of medications, abuse, rape, discipline, so on and so forth. Let’s face it …everything has a side effect. The side effects I am referring to in this post are those most common when we hear the term side effects. With the exception of side effects…