Originally posted 2023-09-01 08:45:05. A few nights ago I had a weird dream. For some reason I dreamt that my mother was murdered. I am not sure if it was because I had been watching some of those shows where they talk about someone was murdered and they were trying to resolve it years later or not. In my dream I went to my mothers house. I will add that I have not been to…
Originally posted 2020-04-24 13:34:45. My family is getting themselves and their belongings moved from halfway across the country. She dropped off my niece and some precious belongings for me to take care of while they finish with the move. Things we hold dear will never be the same.
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Originally posted 2019-02-16 18:29:30. Can someone explain to me why this hurts so freaking much?! I watched the man who I share his DNA, who may not have been a father but he was my father. Then 7 months or so later have to watch my mother, the woman who brought me into this world, carried my through this world in so many different ways. Who I miss more than life itself. I want to…
Originally posted 2023-06-21 06:27:16. It’s been 5 years momma since I watched you take your last breathe. Not a day goes by that you don’t cross my mind. I make sure to touch your urn every single day of my life. Watching you leave the earth so unjustly, with the pain of a thousand knives you left without me.So many things left unsaid, not done, that I struggle with. So many memories have dimmed in…
My Soul hurts as today, June 14th 2025, marks one year since my Chewy has been gone. I know he isn’t hurting anymore. He isn’t suffering from the agressive cancer that ravaged his body, but it hurts so much that it is hard to even explain. His loss has changed me. I love dogs but it has left me no wanting to “fill that hole”. I hope those of you reading this understand what I…
Originally posted 2019-01-26 01:27:06. I woke up this morning with the song Eye In The Sky by The Alan Parsons Project on repeat in my head. I don’t know if it was my momma trying to tell me something or if it was just a coincidence. Do you ever wake up with songs in your head or out of the blue it pops in your head? Do you wonder why? I know in my heart…
This past few weeks have been an absolute tollercoaster of epic proportions. From happy to sad from mad to sad then excited to absolutely amazing then by the end of it all… numbing. We have been going back and forth to my mom’s house to clear everything out. It’s being sold, even though I don’t really want it to be, but there are other people involved, so I don’t hold the sole decision. My stepfather…
Originally posted 2020-01-30 09:00:29. I can to relate to this right now. With so many things that have changed in a little time I want to remember the good times but when I do I feel like I am messing with the healing process. I know life goes on. Hell … I am haven’t even gone back to my mothers house since she passed away. I can’t. How do you get past certain things? It…
Originally posted 2020-01-10 10:48:30. THIS MOVIE HITS SO CLOSE TO HOME Have you ever see the movie, What Dreams May Come? I was scanning through the tv channels looking for a movie or show to watch this morning and came across it. I have seen it before but for some reason this morning it took a more personal meaning. I worry about my family. Not saying this is their reality I just don’t want it…