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Only one I’ve ever known

Originally posted 2023-10-02 07:19:38. I lost the only father I have ever known, my children lost the only grandfather (or better known as Pa to them). I am going to say he is now reunited with my mother. I haven’t even come to terms with my mothers passing and now this. I feel hella guilty because I haven’t even been able to return to my mothers house since she passed and now this. I feel…

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Heirlooms

Originally posted 2018-06-28 18:19:05. I know some of you are wondering what happened. Well… my mama lost her fight with cancer. She had small cell lung cancer, one of the most aggressive I’m told. Her kidneys started failing and no matter what they did they didn’t gain traction in the right direction. I apologize as I just can’t tell the story just. Too soon. But we just picked up the dogs from the kennel and…

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Scammed

Originally posted 2020-05-01 06:13:19. If you remember the passing of my nephews, CJ and Tey, you might remember that they were being cremated and placed in custom urns. Welll… not so fast. After repeated calls and inquiries it appears the urns aren’t even available. They original origin of said urns was either India or China. We have been waiting since December and this should not take this long. The family would like to be able…

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Am I just grieving?

Originally posted 2023-09-01 08:45:05. A few nights ago I had a weird dream. For some reason I dreamt that my mother was murdered. I am not sure if it was because I had been watching some of those shows where they talk about someone was murdered and they were trying to resolve it years later or not. In my dream I went to my mothers house. I will add that I have not been to…

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Why does it hurt

Originally posted 2019-02-16 18:29:30. Can someone explain to me why this hurts so freaking much?! I watched the man who I share his DNA, who may not have been a father but he was my father. Then 7 months or so later have to watch my mother, the woman who brought me into this world, carried my through this world in so many different ways. Who I miss more than life itself. I want to…

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The yearning

Originally posted 2023-06-21 06:27:16. It’s been 5 years momma since I watched you take your last breathe. Not a day goes by that you don’t cross my mind. I make sure to touch your urn every single day of my life. Watching you leave the earth so unjustly, with the pain of a thousand knives you left without me.So many things left unsaid, not done, that I struggle with. So many memories have dimmed in…

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My Soul

My Soul hurts as today, June 14th 2025, marks one year since my Chewy has been gone. I know he isn’t hurting anymore. He isn’t suffering from the agressive cancer that ravaged his body, but it hurts so much that it is hard to even explain. His loss has changed me. I love dogs but it has left me no wanting to “fill that hole”. I hope those of you reading this understand what I…

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