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A Woman of Heart

Originally posted 2015-03-24 22:41:33. As I sit here I am overcome with different emotions as to what I have been dealing with the past week. I feel like I am in a made for television movie of Lifetime or some other channel. The picture below is a picture of my biological father. I was contacted last Tuesday by his friend/girlfriend informing me of his condition. He had already been in one facility and was transferred…

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Secrets and my fear

Originally posted 2015-01-20 13:16:42. https://linktr.ee/AmyMCarter That word can be both negative and positive when it is in our lives. For me it means the struggle of the things I have seen and can’t speak on out of the fear of the parties involved coming after me and my kids. I struggle with it daily. I have this part of me that says I if I say something about the secret I am referring to I…

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How can I?

Originally posted 2019-07-19 19:59:13. It’s been a little over a year since my momma’s passing. I haven’t been back to my momma’s house since. I have kept this in and I need to let it out. It is literally killing me. My life is spent living it day by day, minute by minute. Living my life one breath at a time waiting for the next big thing. First my bio father, then my mom. But…I…

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Side Effects

Originally posted 2015-01-22 17:09:08. Side Effects. The two words can have a lot of meanings to everyone. They take own different meanings depending on the subject. There are side effects of medications, abuse, rape, discipline, so on and so forth. Let’s face it …everything has a side effect. The side effects I am referring to in this post are those most common when we hear the term side effects. With the exception of side effects…

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I shoulder the pain

Originally posted 2019-07-07 09:05:19. I woke up this morning feeling lost, missing my momma. I know my bio father wasn’t really a father to me but losing him I feel I also lost a part of me as well. Then, to make matters worse…. I lost the man that was my “father”. Not by death… I guess you’d say by choice. My heart hurts because I felt betrayed. I don’t know how to get past…

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Letting go

Originally posted 2020-10-01 14:18:57. They letting go of the past that hurt you is good for your soul, your overall happiness…  Well what do you do when you are faced with that past every single minute, hour, day, week, month and year of your life? How do you escape that? How do you grow and learn to cope with something that not only harmed you but the lives of your children?

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A few weeks

Originally posted 2022-05-03 16:45:53. As of today my surgery date has been set. It’s May 23rd. I have to do all the normal preoperative tests and what not. Then the Friday before the surgery, which is on a Monday, I have to stop by the surgeon’s office for them to mark me. I am not exactly sure what that means unless it is marking the area that will be fused. I am wondering if it…

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Hardest Hour

Originally posted 2022-04-28 11:16:59. I had the an appointment with the cranial surgeon yesterday. It was to discuss the changes that have occurred since starting physical therapy. Well more like what happened after seeing the therapist one time. I explained to the surgeon how when I am horizontal it doesn’t seem be nearly as bad. But when I am vertical, that’s when it seems to get worse. It pain and burning sensations seem to crawl…

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