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Some of the damage can’t be repaired

Originally posted 2014-04-11 12:35:08.   Ah, it’s Friday. This week has been on full blast. With my husband taking a class at a local college to events with the local chapter of Special Olympics…we normally stay busy. But we take it like it is. Some of the abuse I was victim to has had a lasting effect on our lives. Some of which is a daily reminder of what I went through. Even though I have been through…

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Walk in my shoes and you will see what it is like to be me…

Originally posted 2014-03-27 13:39:21. Good morning or afternoon where ever you are when you read this. As I sit here drinking my beloved coffee and browse the many pages of the web I came upon a picture that I wanted to share with you. Our scars are not the reminders of the abuse we suffered, they are the reminders on how strong we were to survive it. I am not a victim, I am a…

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I just can’t

Originally posted 2023-01-19 19:14:18. This morning I woke like any other day, nothing different. My husband gets up and starts getting ready for work like any other day… He was driving our truck to work because I had a doctors appointment today. He goes to start the truck and quiet as a mouse. It wasn’t starting. UGHHHH. But that’s not what this post is about… I get coffee, take some of my morning medications… Dogs…

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Triggering Grief

Originally posted 2021-04-23 09:00:00. A couple of mornings ago my bff and I went to find strawberries. We found them and a few other goodies. When we came back my husband wasn’t himself. It was Luther Vandross’s birthday. My husband’s father loved Luther Vandross’s music. For whatever reason it hit him like a ton of bricks and it burst into tears. He had a really off day. He hasn’t really grieved since he passed 2…

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Rude Awakening

Originally posted 2023-01-12 09:30:37. This morning we were abruptly woken up by the dogs fighting for some reason. Now, Max, our eldest dog is approximately 16 years old. At least that is what we have estimated it at. Our daughter found him in 2007 and they estimated his age at around 6 months then. James and I have been together (as of June of this year) 16 years. So we always go off our anniversary…

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Some of the early years

Originally posted 2014-03-19 15:24:53. Listening to the not-so-good advice of my biological father I put my son up for adoption when I had him. On the 3rd day at the hospital I went one way and watched as he went with the foster care/social services worker. I cried thinking at the same time it would be the best thing for him. He was placed in a foster home. His name was “Alex” while in foster…

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Rollercoaster Ride

Originally posted 2022-12-31 12:57:18. This past week and some change has been a wild one. Started on the night of the 22nd and as of right now still lingering. I woke up to my husband throwing up and wailing in pain. It was odd because it was the same exact pain and complaints from the last time he ended up in the emergency room. The last ER visit didn’t result in a diagnosis, which worried…

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The beginning of the toxic relationship

Originally posted 2014-03-18 20:58:28. It was 1992, I was working at Pizza Hut as a waitress and living with a couple who took me in. I met her after committing myself to a mental hospital after being raped by an ex-boyfriends uncle who I thought I could trust. He kept me locked up in the bedroom for weeks. I would try to escape and he would come find me. I tried to tell my boyfriend…

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Finding treasures

Originally posted 2018-12-13 10:00:27. We have been preparing for the contractors to come in and start repairing the damage from hurricane florence. Moving things around so that they can get where they need to get to. Dusty’s room is one of the main rooms. They have to replace interior and exterior walls in there as well as the window. I ran across this little notebook of his. I started going through it and find this…

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An invitation to our lives

Originally posted 2014-03-18 17:34:02.   So here it is. The start, the beginning. Although I am a bit unsure how to do this so bear with me. I have been told on several occasions that I ought to ”write a book” about our lives. I am not beyond sharing our story I just don’t want the ”wrong” attention. You have people who are always going to be the skeptic, the non-believer, the supporter, etc…well I…

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