I feel like I’ve got a wire in me that is shorting out. Like I am on the verge of losing my shit. There are things I do not speak of on here even though this is sort of my diary or journal. There are things that remain locked inside my brain under lock and key with no one else having the spare. There are folks you should be able to confide in but I…
Originally posted 2020-12-11 09:36:48. There are things some just don’t speak of.I am my husband’s ear and sometimes that is painful not to mention stressful. He purchased a truck almost 2 years ago and we have yet to get the truck due to something beyond our control. I’m trying my hardest to get this taken care of but with covid and other things we have had a hard time getting anything done. Yesterday I was…
Originally posted 2015-07-08 17:54:46. Two of the times I have been raped I was under the influence of alcohol. Because of the things I have gone through in my life, the lives of my family members and close friends I am really just not the type of person that drinks like that. Yes, I am Irish so the typical Irishmen are drinkers theory hangs over my head. The first rape was because that…
Originally posted 2015-06-19 13:23:07. I have been reading posts from other domestic violence survivors in support groups. I see myself in so many of the stories I read. The intimidation, manipulation, the “love” the abusers claim they have for their victims. It kills me because as I remember all that I was told and all he claimed I was just so blind and made to believe what he was saying to me was out of…
Originally posted 2022-06-17 08:00:00. I used to love 90s R & B music like Jodeci, but now I can’t listen to them, at all, and it sucks. You see when their album Forever My Lady came out I was with my kids bio/sperm donor, the abuser. We listened to alot of music and that album was one that was played, a lot. With so much of that time of my life tied to these songs…
Originally posted 2019-08-12 08:56:06. Oh how so easily I bruise nowadays. 🤦🏼♀️ 🤦🏼♀️ 🤦🏼♀️ This is from my deep tissue massage on Saturday. #nopainnogain that’s for sure. This is two of them, which there are a few more. My muscles in these areas are locked and don’t want to let go so it’s been a process trying to ease them – after so many surgeries, trauma, stress, etc my muscles have just tensed up so…
Originally posted 2015-04-21 12:32:19. Lately as I have been dealing with my bio and just life in my world there are certain things I end up thinking of from time to time for whatever reason. Not exactly sure what drums those thoughts up but they are there. Some of them honestly hurt. But those are thoughts I would have to take to my grave simply to avoid hurting anyone. Now they aren’t thoughts of physically…
Originally posted 2015-01-20 13:16:42. https://linktr.ee/AmyMCarter That word can be both negative and positive when it is in our lives. For me it means the struggle of the things I have seen and can’t speak on out of the fear of the parties involved coming after me and my kids. I struggle with it daily. I have this part of me that says I if I say something about the secret I am referring to I…
Originally posted 2014-12-12 21:36:07. Today I have really been on the edge and just really anxious. Why really not sure why. Been trying to handle all the above with seemingly none of the below. From the VA to the SSA it’s all been a fight to the finish line. Not to mention the insurance premium program that I applied to months upon months ago. Until recently I had seemed to just be talking to the…
Originally posted 2014-11-17 20:07:23. We recently had the 72 hour EEG done on Dusty to investigate further just how many seizures he is having, or at least to get a better understanding of some of his random movements. We have wondered for a while now if some of those random movements Dusty makes were muscle spasms or actual seizure activity. We got an answer to some of that this past week. The results of the…