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Reminding Myself

Originally posted 2021-04-16 09:00:00. I saw this meme this morning and it was so right! Over the years I was searching for love. It seemed I was so desperate to find love I was taking whatever came my way. I would “love” them (or pretend to) way more than they ever deserved from me. I didn’t love them, I loved the idea of what I thought was love. I wanted so much to be loved…

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An invitation to our lives

Originally posted 2014-03-18 17:34:02.   So here it is. The start, the beginning. Although I am a bit unsure how to do this so bear with me. I have been told on several occasions that I ought to ”write a book” about our lives. I am not beyond sharing our story I just don’t want the ”wrong” attention. You have people who are always going to be the skeptic, the non-believer, the supporter, etc…well I…

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Something’s missing

Ever wake up on Christmas morning and have that overwhelming feeling that something is missing? That is how is has felt this entire day. Now I admit my daughter and I had our issues on Thanksgiving. I don’t know how to get past that day. The fact my abuser and family are that close to my daughter, IT HURTS. But the feeling this morning was different. Is it because this is the first Christmas without…

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Can I confide in you?

Originally posted 2018-12-08 21:29:22. I need to I guess just vent but more than that. I am struggling, emotionally, mentally… I feel like I have fallen down in a hole of darkness. I still see light but the things I once enjoyed just aren’t as bright. I wanted to put up Christmas decorations but we don’t currently have a tree. No big deal because I also feel like I don’t want it up or anything…

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Freezing Anxiety

Originally posted 2022-12-13 09:24:44. Yeah… my title is a twist… Ok, I’m freaking COLD!! LOL Yes I know I am in a building with walls and electricity… Hell we even have a “fireplace” to turn on for heat that runs off propane. Y’all know I have anxiety where fire is concerned because of the house fires. Then the smoke alarms several years ago that went off while my husband was at work. Then a while…

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This is true

Originally posted 2022-12-01 07:05:05. This is so true. I look at people who are in my age group and see how some of them are and wonder just how and why they are the way they are. Now don’t get me wrong, they could have gone through a trauma. Or what may have been traumatic to them. Not everyone can handle trauma the same way. Some of us take that in and it embeds into…

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