Originally posted 2023-10-06 12:56:05. I wish I could explain the feelings going through my veins. To have learned the things I have and to know the things weren’t as they seemed… the shear amount of disappoint is unbelievable. Now to have to deal with all of that is beyond irritating. There are family members that shouldn’t have to even go through this right now but yet here we are. Then another family member is MIA…
Originally posted 2021-11-12 08:40:00. I had an appointment with an orthopedic doctor yesterday. This was for my shoulder/shoulder blade part of back/down my arm issue I wrote a post about. I had it in my mind this was just a muscle issue. I guess this also kind of explains why everything I’ve tried to use to ease the pain didn’t 100% work. I went by myself since I didn’t think this appointment was going to…
Originally posted 2019-04-04 10:36:40. No one knows how my heart truly feels… No one knows the daily struggle I have within myself… No one knows the guilt… No one knows the feeling of being left behind… No one knows the feeling of holding it all together while you rapidly fall apart… No one knows how my heart hurts… No one knows how I want to be free of the struggle… No one knows why I…
Originally posted 2018-07-08 19:29:21. I’m missing my momma so much. It is a pain unlike any other. To never hear her speak, her touch, her smile… It came so suddenly and took her away so abruptly. No fighting chance to keep her here. All hope gone knowing we had to let her go and she just didn’t seem ready. In all honesty I feel lost. My bio father, my brother and my mom all left…
Originally posted 2023-10-04 08:58:58. Well…. my dad passed away at first by a heart attack and now was told it was instead an aneurysm. The death certificate has not be signed off on as of this morning because for whatever reason, all 4 of my step siblings all have to physically be there to sign off on it. Why the eldest one can’t do it by himself I don’t know. Thankfully my aunt (technically step…
Originally posted 2023-10-02 07:19:38. I lost the only father I have ever known, my children lost the only grandfather (or better known as Pa to them). I am going to say he is now reunited with my mother. I haven’t even come to terms with my mothers passing and now this. I feel hella guilty because I haven’t even been able to return to my mothers house since she passed and now this. I feel…
Originally posted 2020-05-06 09:00:18. You know those songs that you absolutely love? The ones that bring back so many memories of your past? Yeah, those. I love music! Always have. I have loved to listen to it and to sing it. I feel the music not just listen to it. You know those songs that you can feel every word, every beat. Well… I also have a love/hate relationship with those same songs. They bring…
Originally posted 2018-06-28 18:19:05. I know some of you are wondering what happened. Well… my mama lost her fight with cancer. She had small cell lung cancer, one of the most aggressive I’m told. Her kidneys started failing and no matter what they did they didn’t gain traction in the right direction. I apologize as I just can’t tell the story just. Too soon. But we just picked up the dogs from the kennel and…