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How to start healing?

Originally posted 2020-01-03 12:45:35. How do you start healing after this? I had to walk over to the pond they went in. I thought that would have brought me some closure but it unfortunately didn’t help. I told my my bff (who is their momma) that I thought it would help me. Last time I saw them I saw all 4 kids, their momma and their daddy. Now we see them and then don’t see…

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What Title?

Originally posted 2019-12-30 07:38:22. Yeah, I wasn’t in a mood to try to figure out a fitting title this morning. As I sit here waiting for my pain medications to kick in I was just thinking. Though that’s hard for some of us natural blonde’s 😉 It started in 2017. My husband lost his grandmother so we went to Tampa to be with family. To celebrate her life, the matriarchal legacy. Even though I knew…

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Mother’s Day

Originally posted 2021-05-09 10:25:54. Mother’s Day will never be the same. I miss her something terrible. I don’t go a day without thinking of her. She brought me in this world and saved my life countless times. I love her and miss her immensely. Happy Mother’s Day to here and those who left this world prematurely. Have a wonderful day.

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Triggering Grief

Originally posted 2021-04-23 09:00:00. A couple of mornings ago my bff and I went to find strawberries. We found them and a few other goodies. When we came back my husband wasn’t himself. It was Luther Vandross’s birthday. My husband’s father loved Luther Vandross’s music. For whatever reason it hit him like a ton of bricks and it burst into tears. He had a really off day. He hasn’t really grieved since he passed 2…

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Head Space

Hey y’all…Hope everyone had a deserving Christmas. The past 6 months have been kicking my ass.I’m in a different head space and trying to find my way back. Ever since Chewy passed, then my ankle replacement, I have just been trying to glide. I have been seeing more wrinkles and more gray hair all the while I don’t feel the wrinkles and gray on the inside.I started using more face products to hopefully counter the…

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Call me Scrooge

Originally posted 2018-12-11 11:03:52. Listen I can’t do Christmas this year. Don’t want to get together with family, exchange gifts, receive gifts, etc. I just can’t. Please do not take this any other way as I am currently struggling just to get up everyday. I have started realizing my momma isn’t coming back. I have been realizing I will never talk to her again and this is just something I am having a hard time…

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She passed peacefully

My “step grandmother” passed peacefully. Unfortunately, no one bothered to tell us she did. So we were unable to attend any of the viewings she had scheduled. My aunt wasn’t even told she passed. She is in the mountains of North Carolina so she would have had to have known alot sooner than I. But she’s now up there with my grandpa, who if you recall (or if I even posted about it) unfortunately committed…

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How Do I Grieve? – Grayson, Gold Star Son & Brother

Originally posted 2022-12-09 10:45:36. Trigger Warning if you may need it. This is shared with permission. Grayson, the son of a friend of mine who is a Gold Star mom. Her son, Marine Cpl Philip D. McGeath was killed in action 1/18/12. Grayson is speaking on the loss of his brother. Grayson’s words mean more than he knows. I had to share. Grayson, I would without a doubt believe your brother is proud of you…

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