Originally posted 2020-01-10 10:48:30. THIS MOVIE HITS SO CLOSE TO HOME Have you ever see the movie, What Dreams May Come? I was scanning through the tv channels looking for a movie or show to watch this morning and came across it. I have seen it before but for some reason this morning it took a more personal meaning. I worry about my family. Not saying this is their reality I just don’t want it…
Originally posted 2020-01-03 12:45:35. How do you start healing after this? I had to walk over to the pond they went in. I thought that would have brought me some closure but it unfortunately didn’t help. I told my my bff (who is their momma) that I thought it would help me. Last time I saw them I saw all 4 kids, their momma and their daddy. Now we see them and then don’t see…
Originally posted 2019-12-30 07:38:22. Yeah, I wasn’t in a mood to try to figure out a fitting title this morning. As I sit here waiting for my pain medications to kick in I was just thinking. Though that’s hard for some of us natural blonde’s 😉 It started in 2017. My husband lost his grandmother so we went to Tampa to be with family. To celebrate her life, the matriarchal legacy. Even though I knew…
Originally posted 2021-04-23 09:00:00. A couple of mornings ago my bff and I went to find strawberries. We found them and a few other goodies. When we came back my husband wasn’t himself. It was Luther Vandross’s birthday. My husband’s father loved Luther Vandross’s music. For whatever reason it hit him like a ton of bricks and it burst into tears. He had a really off day. He hasn’t really grieved since he passed 2…
Originally posted 2018-12-08 21:29:22. I need to I guess just vent but more than that. I am struggling, emotionally, mentally… I feel like I have fallen down in a hole of darkness. I still see light but the things I once enjoyed just aren’t as bright. I wanted to put up Christmas decorations but we don’t currently have a tree. No big deal because I also feel like I don’t want it up or anything…
Originally posted 2019-10-26 11:00:00. My vent… I wish there wasn’t such a divide in our current climate. We are all different, will never fully agree with one another. But focusing on the things we do agree on should be the one thing that keeps us together. I do not understand how humanity is killing normal civil friendships. Don’t you have friends you don’t agree with on everything? Does it stop you from being their friend?…
Originally posted 2021-01-22 13:29:17. In full disclosure I am writing this while under the influence of Ativan…so… Why must we be so afraid of death? Why do we mourn so much over our loved ones? Is it because we really don’t know what’s on the other side? Is it because we don’t know if they are truly better off where they were, in pain?I wonder, with tears I type, I wonder. To my loved ones…