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The Traitor?

Originally posted 2014-03-20 13:54:08. The traitor. That’s the label set upon me because I chose to date out of my race. In the eyes of those that oppose of my relationships I am worse than those who I choose to date. Didn’t┬ádeserve the breath God gave me. I am ok with that. I realize I can’t please everyone with my actions. My courage is not one for the history books but it belongs in my…

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Reminding Myself

Originally posted 2021-04-16 09:00:00. I saw this meme this morning and it was so right! Over the years I was searching for love. It seemed I was so desperate to find love I was taking whatever came my way. I would “love” them (or pretend to) way more than they ever deserved from me. I didn’t love them, I loved the idea of what I thought was love. I wanted so much to be loved…

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An invitation to our lives

Originally posted 2014-03-18 17:34:02.   So here it is. The start, the beginning. Although I am a bit unsure how to do this so bear with me. I have been told on several occasions that I ought to ”write a book” about our lives. I am not beyond sharing our story I just don’t want the ”wrong” attention. You have people who are always going to be the skeptic, the non-believer, the supporter, etc…well I…

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The rush

I woke up this morning like any other morning feeling the need for coffee. But the rush wasn’t from coffee. I started watching this documentary called Killer Sally. She was in an abusive relationship where from the outside no one knew. No one suspected outside of one person she confided in. The man was likeable. She did everything she good to try and please him according to her words. He would even force her to…

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Not so easily triggered

Originally posted 2019-10-18 07:20:50. You know I feel for folks who have gone through trauma but I am not the one that is so easily triggered by things. I don’t know if I have just become so numb to things and that’s why I don’t get ”triggered” by things or not. I can watch things on tv and some things may get my heart racing a little or I get a little anxious but I…

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2018 Financial Education Webinar Series ( Co-presented by NCADV )

Originally posted 2018-03-15 18:07:06. I wish I would have had something like this years ago. So I hope someone will find this and are able to use any of the information.   2018 FINANCIAL EDUCATION WEBINAR SERIES Co-presented by NCADV and the National Endowment for Financial Education http://www.nefe.org/ (NEFE), are exited to share a series of six sequential webinars on financial education for survivors of domestic violence and the advocates who serve them. The series…

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Seeing signs

Originally posted 2015-06-19 13:23:07. I have been reading posts from other domestic violence survivors in support groups. I see myself in so many of the stories I read. The intimidation, manipulation, the “love” the abusers claim they have for their victims. It kills me because as I remember all that I was told and all he claimed I was just so blind and made to believe what he was saying to me was out of…

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Mindful exhaustion

Originally posted 2015-04-23 19:25:56. For some reason today I feel more exhausted than I have been in past times when I have been bombarded by so many things at once. Maybe it’s just because I have been put in a situation I was never prepared to handle. But when are we ever prepared to have to make decisions like this for our parents? Especially the one parent that was never really a “parent” to you.…

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