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Not so easily triggered

Originally posted 2019-10-18 07:20:50. You know I feel for folks who have gone through trauma but I am not the one that is so easily triggered by things. I don’t know if I have just become so numb to things and that’s why I don’t get ”triggered” by things or not. I can watch things on tv and some things may get my heart racing a little or I get a little anxious but I…

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Title? Think I forgot it too…

Originally posted 2016-08-03 20:48:44. Through my years I have gone through things, done things, put myself in situations I shouldn’t have, gone places I shouldn’t have, yet some things I wish I could speak on. There are some things I honestly want to talk about but I can’t. I am pretty sure there are some of you reading that know what I mean. You know there are some things you don’t think you could ever…

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Forgotten kisses

Originally posted 2016-02-17 16:49:14. There are a lot of missing pieces of the puzzle of my life.One particular time, the day I married James. We were sitting here the other night talking about different things as we normally do and then he got on the subject of our wedding day. I remember very little about that day. I remember we were married at the courthouse and two of his fellow Marines were the witnesses, along with…

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The Hero Within…

Originally posted 2016-01-12 15:40:42. Someone recently told me I was his hero. I honestly didn’t know what to say to that. I mean I am just Amy…mom to Dusty and Kayla, wife to James. It’s not like I’m kin to the queen of any country or some Nobel prize winner. Of course they are human too. Just because they did something the world knows about or went through something they at the end of the…

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The Ear

Originally posted 2020-12-11 09:36:48. There are things some just don’t speak of.I am my husband’s ear and sometimes that is painful not to mention stressful. He purchased a truck almost 2 years ago and we have yet to get the truck due to something beyond our control. I’m trying my hardest to get this taken care of but with covid and other things we have had a hard time getting anything done. Yesterday I was…

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Rape and Alcohol

Originally posted 2015-07-08 17:54:46.     Two of the times I have been raped I was under the influence of alcohol. Because of the things I have gone through in my life, the lives of my family members and close friends I am really just not the type of person that drinks like that. Yes, I am Irish so the typical Irishmen are drinkers theory hangs over my head. The first rape was because that…

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Seeing signs

Originally posted 2015-06-19 13:23:07. I have been reading posts from other domestic violence survivors in support groups. I see myself in so many of the stories I read. The intimidation, manipulation, the “love” the abusers claim they have for their victims. It kills me because as I remember all that I was told and all he claimed I was just so blind and made to believe what he was saying to me was out of…

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