Originally posted 2023-01-19 19:14:18. This morning I woke like any other day, nothing different. My husband gets up and starts getting ready for work like any other day… He was driving our truck to work because I had a doctors appointment today. He goes to start the truck and quiet as a mouse. It wasn’t starting. UGHHHH. But that’s not what this post is about… I get coffee, take some of my morning medications… Dogs…
Originally posted 2014-03-19 15:24:53. Listening to the not-so-good advice of my biological father I put my son up for adoption when I had him. On the 3rd day at the hospital I went one way and watched as he went with the foster care/social services worker. I cried thinking at the same time it would be the best thing for him. He was placed in a foster home. His name was “Alex” while in foster…
Originally posted 2014-03-18 20:58:28. It was 1992, I was working at Pizza Hut as a waitress and living with a couple who took me in. I met her after committing myself to a mental hospital after being raped by an ex-boyfriends uncle who I thought I could trust. He kept me locked up in the bedroom for weeks. I would try to escape and he would come find me. I tried to tell my boyfriend…
Originally posted 2014-03-18 17:34:02. So here it is. The start, the beginning. Although I am a bit unsure how to do this so bear with me. I have been told on several occasions that I ought to ”write a book” about our lives. I am not beyond sharing our story I just don’t want the ”wrong” attention. You have people who are always going to be the skeptic, the non-believer, the supporter, etc…well I…
Originally posted 2021-04-04 09:00:56. Go figure…. I couldn’t sleep. I had a bad dream last night. I think the incident with my son recently triggered something. My dream … what I remember is us going somewhere out to eat or having fun somewhere. You know how it is when you have a dream but can’t exactly remember all parts just bits and pieces. Anyway, while everyone was inside I go outside for some reason and…
Originally posted 2017-03-12 03:26:32. Who do you see when you look in the mirror? Do you see the struggle, the strides, the scars? Or do you see what those of us see that know your obstacles? The strength you were given to carry the weight of 10 men through the desert. Do you see the fragility of a blooming rose? Do you see the sparkle of the night’s sky lit up by a billion…
Originally posted 2022-12-13 09:24:44. Yeah… my title is a twist… Ok, I’m freaking COLD!! LOL Yes I know I am in a building with walls and electricity… Hell we even have a “fireplace” to turn on for heat that runs off propane. Y’all know I have anxiety where fire is concerned because of the house fires. Then the smoke alarms several years ago that went off while my husband was at work. Then a while…
Originally posted 2016-11-14 13:33:22. My husband and I were talking the other day about the things in my past. He has expressed on more than one occasion that if he could he would somehow erase, get rid of, the people or events that have left such a lasting effect on my mind, body, and soul. Those things that have left me forever scarred and in some aspects unable to return to my former self. Well,…
Originally posted 2022-12-01 07:05:05. This is so true. I look at people who are in my age group and see how some of them are and wonder just how and why they are the way they are. Now don’t get me wrong, they could have gone through a trauma. Or what may have been traumatic to them. Not everyone can handle trauma the same way. Some of us take that in and it embeds into…