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In my thoughts

Originally posted 2019-07-04 09:06:45. You know I have been thinking alot more since the passing of my mother, June 21 2018. I miss her so much. My son, Dusty, talks about her ALOT. It is hard to hear him talk about her. I mean it is good thoughts but it is painful to hear. With me trying to heal and deal with life without her… it feels like scab being ripped from your skin. One…

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A few weeks

Originally posted 2022-05-03 16:45:53. As of today my surgery date has been set. It’s May 23rd. I have to do all the normal preoperative tests and what not. Then the Friday before the surgery, which is on a Monday, I have to stop by the surgeon’s office for them to mark me. I am not exactly sure what that means unless it is marking the area that will be fused. I am wondering if it…

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An open letter… 😁

Originally posted 2017-09-07 12:56:53. 😂😂😂😂😂 IRMA MAE, Listen baby, I understand you and HARVEY had some ups and downs, and then he left you and his son. But you don’t have to chase him honey! Women get their hearts broken everyday, but we don’t just take it out on EVERYBODY that’s “Close” to us 😕 Why don’t you and little JOSE just chill and enjoy the Atlantic… Cause WE don’t want to be in the…

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Unexpected

Originally posted 2020-09-12 17:36:51. Late last night Leia went out to use the bathroom. On her way back in something happened. As she walked in the house further she spilled more blood. She bled the rest of the night while my husband and I took turns watching her. I called an emergency veterinary clinic but the person I spoke with didn’t exactly give me that comforting feeling everything would be ok. So first thing this…

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Caregiving: Why change is difficult 

Originally posted 2019-07-01 17:27:59. An Excerpt from Leaning Into Sharp Points). Change is analogous to a large boulder balanced on a precipice. It looks like it could tumble off the cliff if just a little pressure were applied. But despite your great effort, it won’t budge. The weight and inertia of the boulder prevent it from moving. And just as with the boulder, inertia prevents us and our loved ones from changing a behavior that’s been…

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Hardest Hour

Originally posted 2022-04-28 11:16:59. I had the an appointment with the cranial surgeon yesterday. It was to discuss the changes that have occurred since starting physical therapy. Well more like what happened after seeing the therapist one time. I explained to the surgeon how when I am horizontal it doesn’t seem be nearly as bad. But when I am vertical, that’s when it seems to get worse. It pain and burning sensations seem to crawl…

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My disdain was clear

Originally posted 2019-06-29 08:25:14. So I go see an allergist this week. I had an allergy test done several, several years ago but my pcm felt an updated one was in order. Previous results showed I was allergic to dust mites and roach feces. I went to the same doctor’s office as the previous appointment. I expected him to do an updated test. I believe the old test results may have been archived because he…

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I’ll admit

Originally posted 2018-08-29 14:18:59. I have been in a slump since my momma passed away. I know I still have alot to be thankful for but I feel like I have lost my will to carry on. Now don’t mistake that for me being suicidal, because I am not. I just don’t have the same – umph – per say to live like I did before. Does that makes sense? I quit… just literally abandoned…

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