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The month of blur

Originally posted 2017-12-05 14:09:25. This past month has seriously been a blur. It’s been a little more than a month when I think about it. If you go back to October when I had my mini-stroke so that’s almost 2 months. Geez… Biological father passed away on November 14th. Dusty and I had gotten up early that morning to make the trip to see him when the so-called girlfriend called me to tell me he…

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Scammed

Originally posted 2020-05-01 06:13:19. If you remember the passing of my nephews, CJ and Tey, you might remember that they were being cremated and placed in custom urns. Welll… not so fast. After repeated calls and inquiries it appears the urns aren’t even available. They original origin of said urns was either India or China. We have been waiting since December and this should not take this long. The family would like to be able…

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Trust me, I get it

Originally posted 2020-04-10 08:00:54. I’ve heard Pure Romance just isn’t my thing. I get it, trust me. I am an approaching 50 year old married southern woman. The mom and caregiver for my 26 year old special needs autistic son. The wife and caregiver of a disabled Marine Corps veteran. I have my faith but not attached to any specific religion but I do believe. I have gone through alot of traumatic experiences as a…

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The yearning

It’s been 5 years momma since I watched you take your last breathe. Not a day goes by that you don’t cross my mind. I make sure to touch your urn every single day of my life. Watching you leave the earth so unjustly, with the pain of a thousand knives you left without me.So many things left unsaid, not done, that I struggle with. So many memories have dimmed in my mind as I…

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A passion for helping others

Originally posted 2014-08-11 01:49:08. Here it is on a Sunday evening and I am sitting here watching my husband sleep. Which I am ok with. He is trying to struggle with his current job to try to transition from years in the Marine Corps to now transition to driving CDL (commercial driving) for a living. I recently had a big explosion of feelings return to me after speaking to my biological father on the phone.…

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Film Friday – What Dreams May Come

Originally posted 2020-01-10 10:48:30. THIS MOVIE HITS SO CLOSE TO HOME Have you ever see the movie, What Dreams May Come? I was scanning through the tv channels looking for a movie or show to watch this morning and came across it. I have seen it before but for some reason this morning it took a more personal meaning. I worry about my family. Not saying this is their reality I just don’t want it…

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Triggering Grief

Originally posted 2021-04-23 09:00:00. A couple of mornings ago my bff and I went to find strawberries. We found them and a few other goodies. When we came back my husband wasn’t himself. It was Luther Vandross’s birthday. My husband’s father loved Luther Vandross’s music. For whatever reason it hit him like a ton of bricks and it burst into tears. He had a really off day. He hasn’t really grieved since he passed 2…

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