Today’s the Day!
Originally posted 2022-05-23 05:00:00. Welp, today’s the day! Wish me luck! See you on the other side! Where’s the surgeon who does this? LOL
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I shoulder the pain
Originally posted 2019-07-07 09:05:19. I woke up this morning feeling lost, missing my momma. I know my bio father wasn’t really a father to me but losing him I feel I also lost a part of me as well. Then, to make matters worse…. I lost the man that was my “father”. Not by death… I guess you’d say by choice. My heart hurts because I felt betrayed. I don’t know how to get past…
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Letting go
Originally posted 2020-10-01 14:18:57. They letting go of the past that hurt you is good for your soul, your overall happiness… Well what do you do when you are faced with that past every single minute, hour, day, week, month and year of your life? How do you escape that? How do you grow and learn to cope with something that not only harmed you but the lives of your children?
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A few weeks
Originally posted 2022-05-03 16:45:53. As of today my surgery date has been set. It’s May 23rd. I have to do all the normal preoperative tests and what not. Then the Friday before the surgery, which is on a Monday, I have to stop by the surgeon’s office for them to mark me. I am not exactly sure what that means unless it is marking the area that will be fused. I am wondering if it…
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Hardest Hour
Originally posted 2022-04-28 11:16:59. I had the an appointment with the cranial surgeon yesterday. It was to discuss the changes that have occurred since starting physical therapy. Well more like what happened after seeing the therapist one time. I explained to the surgeon how when I am horizontal it doesn’t seem be nearly as bad. But when I am vertical, that’s when it seems to get worse. It pain and burning sensations seem to crawl…
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Other day another holler
Originally posted 2022-04-21 13:39:22. This is an update to my Monday post painful evaluation. It’s Thursday afternoon at 1:11pm. I’m sitting in my recliner with an ice block unevenly situated on my cervical spine best way I know how. I have been feeling semi miserable since Monday and it just seems as if the guy irritated the shit out of something in there and it’s not getting any better. It sucks because I felt no…
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I lost the words
Originally posted 2019-06-21 17:37:19. Do you know how hard it is to grieve with someone around you watching you every second of the day? I know I will miss this one day when he’s gone but I feel like I can’t do what I need to do for me in order to “protect him” Today in 2018 my mother lost her fight. She when down quick but not without fight. Things lay on my mind…