Originally posted 2017-11-28 00:39:00. My husband took this picture of my biological father and I while I was talking to him, letting him know that I was there with him. The morning he passed away Dusty and I were getting ready to make the 2 hour (one-way) trip to see him. I was told he passed at 4:20 in the morning on November 14th 2017. At least he’s able to be with my grandparents and…
Originally posted 2017-11-17 10:06:19. I got a phone call from my bio father’s “girlfriend” just a bit ago. He has been in the hospital for several weeks now. It seems last night he took a turn for the worse. He stopped wanting to eat ~ even if being fed. They are considering a feeding tube. He spiked a fever of 102 and feel that he may have a touch of pneumonia. So they have started…
Originally posted 2017-11-10 06:25:15. Dementia is a heartless bitch… My biological father is being transferred to hospice. Stopped eating days ago. His decline has been rapid. I can’t express how painful this is to watch.
Originally posted 2021-09-10 09:00:00. I recently got a B12 injection at a local medspa. In the check-in process I spoke with a provider via videochat. He asked me why I was interested in getting a B12 injection. I told him I have had 9 mini-strokes and 1 stroke. I have suffered memory loss as well as frustration when I do simple tasks (at times). I have read in my research that when someone is in…
Originally posted 2019-02-16 18:29:30. Can someone explain to me why this hurts so freaking much?! I watched the man who I share his DNA, who may not have been a father but he was my father. Then 7 months or so later have to watch my mother, the woman who brought me into this world, carried my through this world in so many different ways. Who I miss more than life itself. I want to…
Originally posted 2020-02-29 08:32:10. This is where I am right now. As much as I smile to hide through the pain this is me. I will admit it. It’s like I am almost not even feeling things the way I would normally. Am I depressed? Maybe so. I am not suicidal even though I will admit that after my momma’s passing all I wanted to do was be with her. The moment she passed I…
Originally posted 2020-02-08 08:00:00. As you may know we have 4 dogs. Max is the oldest at approximately 13 yrs old. The other day when they had their grooming appointment he had a little moment similar to folks who have dementia. He has been around the groomer for a while now and is comfortable with her but this day, at this time, he just wasn’t comfortable with anyone. So I get a call on my…
Originally posted 2014-07-07 18:33:37. You know there are days when I just want to give it all up and others that I can’t get enough. The life I was given I sure has its meanings. I just for once would like not to struggle…just once. I realize there are so many people who have been dealt a bad hand and others don’t even use their own. Some that think mommy and daddy are they forever…