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I just can’t

This morning I woke like any other day, nothing different. My husband gets up and starts getting ready for work like any other day… He was driving our truck to work because I had a doctors appointment today. He goes to start the truck and quiet as a mouse. It wasn’t starting. UGHHHH. But that’s not what this post is about… I get coffee, take some of my morning medications… Dogs get let outside to…

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The Traitor?

Originally posted 2014-03-20 13:54:08. The traitor. That’s the label set upon me because I chose to date out of my race. In the eyes of those that oppose of my relationships I am worse than those who I choose to date. Didn’t deserve the breath God gave me. I am ok with that. I realize I can’t please everyone with my actions. My courage is not one for the history books but it belongs in my…

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Some of the early years

Originally posted 2014-03-19 15:24:53. Listening to the not-so-good advice of my biological father I put my son up for adoption when I had him. On the 3rd day at the hospital I went one way and watched as he went with the foster care/social services worker. I cried thinking at the same time it would be the best thing for him. He was placed in a foster home. His name was “Alex” while in foster…

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An invitation to our lives

Originally posted 2014-03-18 17:34:02.   So here it is. The start, the beginning. Although I am a bit unsure how to do this so bear with me. I have been told on several occasions that I ought to ”write a book” about our lives. I am not beyond sharing our story I just don’t want the ”wrong” attention. You have people who are always going to be the skeptic, the non-believer, the supporter, etc…well I…

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Mental Memory, Physical Moments

Originally posted 2016-11-14 13:33:22. My husband and I were talking the other day about the things in my past. He has expressed on more than one occasion that if he could he would somehow erase, get rid of, the people or events that have left such a lasting effect on my mind, body, and soul. Those things that have left me forever scarred and in some aspects unable to return to my former self. Well,…

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The rush

I woke up this morning like any other morning feeling the need for coffee. But the rush wasn’t from coffee. I started watching this documentary called Killer Sally. She was in an abusive relationship where from the outside no one knew. No one suspected outside of one person she confided in. The man was likeable. She did everything she good to try and please him according to her words. He would even force her to…

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Not so easily triggered

Originally posted 2019-10-18 07:20:50. You know I feel for folks who have gone through trauma but I am not the one that is so easily triggered by things. I don’t know if I have just become so numb to things and that’s why I don’t get ”triggered” by things or not. I can watch things on tv and some things may get my heart racing a little or I get a little anxious but I…

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