Originally posted 2019-09-24 13:41:44. You know it’s been 20 plus years since I was raped by someone I thought was a friend. To this day, nothing. Rape kit as far as I know backlogged. I wouldn’t know what to so if they finally tested, prosecuted, etc. #Unbelievable @netflix — Carter Family (@usmccarterswife) September 24, 2019 Watch the trailer for the Limited Series here.
Tag: trauma
Day 921
Day three feels like nine hundred and twenty-one. I’m in so much pain I am not even hungry. Problem is I need to eat being on all these medications. The nerve block more than likely wore off today since it is only supposed to last 3 or so days. I stayed in the hospital overnight because I was in so much pain. I remember looking at the monitor and it was like 168 over something.…
On the verge
I feel like I’ve got a wire in me that is shorting out. Like I am on the verge of losing my shit. There are things I do not speak of on here even though this is sort of my diary or journal. There are things that remain locked inside my brain under lock and key with no one else having the spare. There are folks you should be able to confide in but I…
Rape and Alcohol
Originally posted 2015-07-08 17:54:46. Two of the times I have been raped I was under the influence of alcohol. Because of the things I have gone through in my life, the lives of my family members and close friends I am really just not the type of person that drinks like that. Yes, I am Irish so the typical Irishmen are drinkers theory hangs over my head. The first rape was because that…
Painful progress
Originally posted 2019-08-12 08:56:06. Oh how so easily I bruise nowadays. 🤦🏼♀️ 🤦🏼♀️ 🤦🏼♀️ This is from my deep tissue massage on Saturday. #nopainnogain that’s for sure. This is two of them, which there are a few more. My muscles in these areas are locked and don’t want to let go so it’s been a process trying to ease them – after so many surgeries, trauma, stress, etc my muscles have just tensed up so…
Unspoken Words
Originally posted 2015-04-21 12:32:19. Lately as I have been dealing with my bio and just life in my world there are certain things I end up thinking of from time to time for whatever reason. Not exactly sure what drums those thoughts up but they are there. Some of them honestly hurt. But those are thoughts I would have to take to my grave simply to avoid hurting anyone. Now they aren’t thoughts of physically…
Happy Heavenly Birthday Momma and CJ
Originally posted 2020-10-20 08:00:00. My nephew CJ’s birthday was October 17th and my momma’s is October 20th. They may be gone in the physical sense but never forgotten. It’s barely been 10 months since CJ’s passing and almost 2 and a half years for since my momma passed away. It is hard “celebrating” their birthday when they aren’t here. I know my momma would want us to celebrate and have fun, drink a beer and…
Secrets and my fear
Originally posted 2015-01-20 13:16:42. https://linktr.ee/AmyMCarter That word can be both negative and positive when it is in our lives. For me it means the struggle of the things I have seen and can’t speak on out of the fear of the parties involved coming after me and my kids. I struggle with it daily. I have this part of me that says I if I say something about the secret I am referring to I…
Its a new year and what will it bring
Originally posted 2015-01-07 00:57:18. Well its now 2015, Yay! What that means, who knows. Will it be a good year for us and so many more, one could hope so. To start off the new year a very close family friend’s husband of 28 years passed away. He had been suffering from ALS. He passed on January 2, 2015. His wife is such an overwhelmingly loving person who we were honored to connect with back…