Originally posted 2016-11-14 13:33:22. My husband and I were talking the other day about the things in my past. He has expressed on more than one occasion that if he could he would somehow erase, get rid of, the people or events that have left such a lasting effect on my mind, body, and soul. Those things that have left me forever scarred and in some aspects unable to return to my former self. Well,…
Originally posted 2022-12-01 07:05:05. This is so true. I look at people who are in my age group and see how some of them are and wonder just how and why they are the way they are. Now don’t get me wrong, they could have gone through a trauma. Or what may have been traumatic to them. Not everyone can handle trauma the same way. Some of us take that in and it embeds into…
Originally posted 2019-10-18 07:20:50. You know I feel for folks who have gone through trauma but I am not the one that is so easily triggered by things. I don’t know if I have just become so numb to things and that’s why I don’t get ”triggered” by things or not. I can watch things on tv and some things may get my heart racing a little or I get a little anxious but I…
Originally posted 2016-08-03 20:48:44. Through my years I have gone through things, done things, put myself in situations I shouldn’t have, gone places I shouldn’t have, yet some things I wish I could speak on. There are some things I honestly want to talk about but I can’t. I am pretty sure there are some of you reading that know what I mean. You know there are some things you don’t think you could ever…
Originally posted 2019-09-24 13:41:44. You know it’s been 20 plus years since I was raped by someone I thought was a friend. To this day, nothing. Rape kit as far as I know backlogged. I wouldn’t know what to so if they finally tested, prosecuted, etc. #Unbelievable @netflix — Carter Family (@usmccarterswife) September 24, 2019 Watch the trailer for the Limited Series here.
Day three feels like nine hundred and twenty-one. I’m in so much pain I am not even hungry. Problem is I need to eat being on all these medications. The nerve block more than likely wore off today since it is only supposed to last 3 or so days. I stayed in the hospital overnight because I was in so much pain. I remember looking at the monitor and it was like 168 over something.…
I feel like I’ve got a wire in me that is shorting out. Like I am on the verge of losing my shit. There are things I do not speak of on here even though this is sort of my diary or journal. There are things that remain locked inside my brain under lock and key with no one else having the spare. There are folks you should be able to confide in but I…
Originally posted 2015-07-08 17:54:46. Two of the times I have been raped I was under the influence of alcohol. Because of the things I have gone through in my life, the lives of my family members and close friends I am really just not the type of person that drinks like that. Yes, I am Irish so the typical Irishmen are drinkers theory hangs over my head. The first rape was because that…
Originally posted 2019-08-12 08:56:06. Oh how so easily I bruise nowadays. 🤦🏼♀️ 🤦🏼♀️ 🤦🏼♀️ This is from my deep tissue massage on Saturday. #nopainnogain that’s for sure. This is two of them, which there are a few more. My muscles in these areas are locked and don’t want to let go so it’s been a process trying to ease them – after so many surgeries, trauma, stress, etc my muscles have just tensed up so…