Family

Flashbacks

Originally posted 2014-04-15 18:59:26. Flashbacks, in one word can bring you to your knees. Over the years I have been affected by three house fires. The first was November 1994, 34 degrees and it was raining. The day and time are not as vivid in my mind anymore. This was the one was while I was still with the biological father and his family. The power had been out for several weeks at that point and…

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Family

I just can’t

Originally posted 2023-01-19 19:14:18. This morning I woke like any other day, nothing different. My husband gets up and starts getting ready for work like any other day… He was driving our truck to work because I had a doctors appointment today. He goes to start the truck and quiet as a mouse. It wasn’t starting. UGHHHH. But that’s not what this post is about… I get coffee, take some of my morning medications… Dogs…

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Veteran Spotlight

Meet Joy

Originally posted 2019-11-24 11:00:30. “My dad passed away and before he passed he picked up an art brush and he painted. He has painted some amazing pieces. So when he passed I drew a humming bird then I was looking at the humming bird and another memory came to me and another one. So I started my first piece in memory of my dad. Since I’ve done multiple pieces each represents someone’s stories. I’ve also…

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Family

Triggering Grief

Originally posted 2021-04-23 09:00:00. A couple of mornings ago my bff and I went to find strawberries. We found them and a few other goodies. When we came back my husband wasn’t himself. It was Luther Vandross’s birthday. My husband’s father loved Luther Vandross’s music. For whatever reason it hit him like a ton of bricks and it burst into tears. He had a really off day. He hasn’t really grieved since he passed 2…

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Head Space

Hey y’all…Hope everyone had a deserving Christmas. The past 6 months have been kicking my ass.I’m in a different head space and trying to find my way back. Ever since Chewy passed, then my ankle replacement, I have just been trying to glide. I have been seeing more wrinkles and more gray hair all the while I don’t feel the wrinkles and gray on the inside.I started using more face products to hopefully counter the…

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Reminding Myself

Originally posted 2021-04-16 09:00:00. I saw this meme this morning and it was so right! Over the years I was searching for love. It seemed I was so desperate to find love I was taking whatever came my way. I would “love” them (or pretend to) way more than they ever deserved from me. I didn’t love them, I loved the idea of what I thought was love. I wanted so much to be loved…

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Family

An invitation to our lives

Originally posted 2014-03-18 17:34:02.   So here it is. The start, the beginning. Although I am a bit unsure how to do this so bear with me. I have been told on several occasions that I ought to ”write a book” about our lives. I am not beyond sharing our story I just don’t want the ”wrong” attention. You have people who are always going to be the skeptic, the non-believer, the supporter, etc…well I…

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Family

Something’s missing

Ever wake up on Christmas morning and have that overwhelming feeling that something is missing? That is how is has felt this entire day. Now I admit my daughter and I had our issues on Thanksgiving. I don’t know how to get past that day. The fact my abuser and family are that close to my daughter, IT HURTS. But the feeling this morning was different. Is it because this is the first Christmas without…

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