Originally posted 2018-12-08 21:29:22. I need to I guess just vent but more than that. I am struggling, emotionally, mentally… I feel like I have fallen down in a hole of darkness. I still see light but the things I once enjoyed just aren’t as bright. I wanted to put up Christmas decorations but we don’t currently have a tree. No big deal because I also feel like I don’t want it up or anything…
Originally posted 2021-01-22 13:29:17. In full disclosure I am writing this while under the influence of Ativan…so… Why must we be so afraid of death? Why do we mourn so much over our loved ones? Is it because we really don’t know what’s on the other side? Is it because we don’t know if they are truly better off where they were, in pain?I wonder, with tears I type, I wonder. To my loved ones…
Originally posted 2020-03-20 21:26:45. There are words in my heart and mind that are desperately trying to get out. The news I learned today was supposed to be an extremely joyous one, truth is, it’s not. I suddenly felt this overwhelming feeling come over me, a feeling I can’t explain. It was sadness, grief, anger, and desperation. I feel so lost.I don’t know what to do… 😪😪😪