Originally posted 2020-04-12 08:00:10. Have you ever just looked at your spouse and just for a few seconds was in somewhat of a trance? Not because they were doing anything in particular, just because. Just because they are who they are. I sat here yesterday after we got back home just looking at my husband. After losing my mom, my bio father, my nephews he’s thankfully still here. I’m just in awe… Is our relationship…
Originally posted 2018-06-15 14:38:27. This will be the hardest thing I have ever done. I have to somehow suppress the expression on my face because Dusty is watching me like a hawk. He knows something is up. This hurts so much. I don’t know how to let go of my mother. I don’t know how to live my life without her. I don’t know how I will ever explain it to Dusty. I pray to…
Originally posted 2020-04-10 08:00:54. I’ve heard Pure Romance just isn’t my thing. I get it, trust me. I am an approaching 50 year old married southern woman. The mom and caregiver for my 26 year old special needs autistic son. The wife and caregiver of a disabled Marine Corps veteran. I have my faith but not attached to any specific religion but I do believe. I have gone through alot of traumatic experiences as a…
Originally posted 2019-03-01 21:02:41. James wanted to put her in something more personal so we opted for the temporary urn. They had all of the paperwork her urn and a clay paw print in a gift bag. My husband rode home with it in his passenger seat. I think he was talking to her because he was behind my me at a stop light and I could see him in my rear view ❤. Idratherbewithmydog.net…
Originally posted 2018-06-12 13:09:01. I need your prayers, miracles. My heart hurts and I just can’t do life without my momma. She is in the fight for life and I will likely not be on social media much. Her kidneys took a hit and need to heal in order for them to do any chemo or radiation. Cancer is in her liver and lungs and they need to see if it is in her brain…
Originally posted 2018-06-06 11:13:07. As I sit here looking of inspiration for each keystroke I hold back tears. The normal daily routine of getting my son up to take his medications doesn’t stop for anything. Hearing the words in my head over and over… CANCER… My mother has beaten colorectal cancer just a few years ago. Her body still trying to recover from the chemo and radiation. Then having to have her arteries bypassed…
Originally posted 2019-02-25 08:58:22. We unfortunately have to put her to sleep. The cancer – tumor is just ravaging her poor little body. We had planned on taking her to nc state oncology for her appointment but she can’t do anything for herself anymore. We tried to get her up but she just stands there leaning against you. No wagging her tail no nothing. She will definitely be missed. She was the alpha in this…
Originally posted 2019-02-19 18:02:03. As we were headed back to the NC State Veterinary School to pick up Charlie we get a phone call. “Inoperable mass on her brain stem” She is staying there tonight as she was still recovering from the anesthesia. After my medical procedure, Dusty’s psychiatrist appointment and Chewy’s follow-up appointment tomorrow we will head back up there to discuss any available options. He doesn’t want her to suffer but he just…
It’s been 5 years momma since I watched you take your last breathe. Not a day goes by that you don’t cross my mind. I make sure to touch your urn every single day of my life. Watching you leave the earth so unjustly, with the pain of a thousand knives you left without me.So many things left unsaid, not done, that I struggle with. So many memories have dimmed in my mind as I…