Tag: love
Family
Missing my momma
Originally posted 2018-07-08 19:29:21. I’m missing my momma so much. It is a pain unlike any other. To never hear her speak, her touch, her smile… It came so suddenly and took her away so abruptly. No fighting chance to keep her here. All hope gone knowing we had to let her go and she just didn’t seem ready. In all honesty I feel lost. My bio father, my brother and my mom all left…
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Which is it?
Well…. my dad passed away at first by a heart attack and now was told it was instead an aneurysm. The death certificate has not be signed off on as of this morning because for whatever reason, all 4 of my step siblings all have to physically be there to sign off on it. Why the eldest one can’t do it by himself I don’t know. Thankfully my aunt (technically step aunt) lives in our…
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Only one I’ve ever known
I lost the only father I have ever known, my children lost the only grandfather (or better known as Pa to them). I am going to say he is now reunited with my mother. I haven’t even come to terms with my mothers passing and now this. I feel hella guilty because I haven’t even been able to return to my mothers house since she passed and now this. I feel left behind. My momma,…
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Musical Love Connection
Originally posted 2020-05-06 09:00:18. You know those songs that you absolutely love? The ones that bring back so many memories of your past? Yeah, those. I love music! Always have. I have loved to listen to it and to sing it. I feel the music not just listen to it. You know those songs that you can feel every word, every beat. Well… I also have a love/hate relationship with those same songs. They bring…
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Heirlooms
Originally posted 2018-06-28 18:19:05. I know some of you are wondering what happened. Well… my mama lost her fight with cancer. She had small cell lung cancer, one of the most aggressive I’m told. Her kidneys started failing and no matter what they did they didn’t gain traction in the right direction. I apologize as I just can’t tell the story just. Too soon. But we just picked up the dogs from the kennel and…
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My momma 1949-2018
Originally posted 2018-06-27 18:35:18. Oh how I miss my momma. I know she is no longer in pain. Cancer ravaged her little body twice and she beat it once. The 2nd time it tried but we aren’t sure what truly took her out. It was either her kidneys or the cancer. The cancer was just really aggressive. I love you momma…
Family
This so hard
Originally posted 2018-06-17 22:22:17. Please continue to pray for strength and healing. This is by far one of the hardest things I think I have dealt with in my life. It literally feels like my heart is being ripped out of my chest. Her kidneys just aren’t recovering from the kidney stones and they need to start chemotherapy now. I am watching my mother fight so much but did say if for some reason something…
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Am I just grieving?
A few nights ago I had a weird dream. For some reason I dreamt that my mother was murdered. I am not sure if it was because I had been watching some of those shows where they talk about someone was murdered and they were trying to resolve it years later or not. In my dream I went to my mothers house. I will add that I have not been to my mothers house since…
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Precious Treasures
Originally posted 2020-04-24 13:34:45. My family is getting themselves and their belongings moved from halfway across the country. She dropped off my niece and some precious belongings for me to take care of while they finish with the move. Things we hold dear will never be the same.