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The truth can be hard to see

Originally posted 2014-05-27 14:15:09. Originally posted May 27 2014 Well it has been almost 2 weeks since my last post. I have been having an enormous amount of discomfort from whatever is going on inside of me. Today I go for an ultrasound. Thank goodness someone finally ordered something I needed. I have just been beyond ready to find out the problem. On the other hand ignorance may be bliss because if it is something…

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There is a reason we are here, just not sure yet why.

Originally posted 2014-05-01 16:47:33. Have you ever wondered why you go through certain things in your life? Why you may suffer from events, diseases, or whatever you have gone through? Yeah, me too. As I have reached my fourth decade of life I look back and take accountability of the things that have gotten me here. I look at the things both of my children have had to go through being biracial, to the illnesses,…

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Who wrote the book on how to raise children?

Originally posted 2014-03-31 18:30:07. You know there are oodles of books on the market on how to raise children. You are told to do it this way or that way. This is the way your parents and grandparents did it. Then after having a special needs child you are under a microscope all the time. For us it was the department of social services. I realize that the intentions of some are good but then…

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Just another day in my life…

Originally posted 2014-03-30 13:02:40. My biological father and my mother divorced when I was two years old.  My father’s side of the family led what seemed to be a privileged life, as least more than the average family. They had those social-lite parties. My grandmother was a RN and my grandfather retired from the Army to work for Goodyear.  I of course wasn’t apart of that lifestyle. My bio’s mother insisted no “cheap store type…

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Walk in my shoes and you will see what it is like to be me…

Originally posted 2014-03-27 13:39:21. Good morning or afternoon where ever you are when you read this. As I sit here drinking my beloved coffee and browse the many pages of the web I came upon a picture that I wanted to share with you. Our scars are not the reminders of the abuse we suffered, they are the reminders on how strong we were to survive it. I am not a victim, I am a…

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One of his biggest fans

Originally posted 2014-03-25 18:30:45. He was born August of 93 and she was born November 95 so a little over 2 years apart. All their lives I have been asked, Are they twins? No. Of course not. But their bond is one that I can’t explain. They have been together in even the most traumatic event like the times when child protective services took them away from me on the spot. I remember that like it…

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Not just biased….

Originally posted 2014-03-23 01:43:32. I realize I am a mother and the parent tends to be somewhat biased when it comes to certain things. Today isn’t one of those days. My beautiful, intelligent,  compassionate daughter….. all she wants to do is care for people. Yes she can be a bitch.  But come on what female do you know who is never been a bitch.  Sorry but we can all be that way at times. Furthermore…

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The Traitor?

Originally posted 2014-03-20 13:54:08. The traitor. That’s the label set upon me because I chose to date out of my race. In the eyes of those that oppose of my relationships I am worse than those who I choose to date. Didn’t deserve the breath God gave me. I am ok with that. I realize I can’t please everyone with my actions. My courage is not one for the history books but it belongs in my…

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The beginning of the toxic relationship

Originally posted 2014-03-18 20:58:28. It was 1992, I was working at Pizza Hut as a waitress and living with a couple who took me in. I met her after committing myself to a mental hospital after being raped by an ex-boyfriends uncle who I thought I could trust. He kept me locked up in the bedroom for weeks. I would try to escape and he would come find me. I tried to tell my boyfriend…

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