Well…. my dad passed away at first by a heart attack and now was told it was instead an aneurysm. The death certificate has not be signed off on as of this morning because for whatever reason, all 4 of my step siblings all have to physically be there to sign off on it. Why the eldest one can’t do it by himself I don’t know. Thankfully my aunt (technically step aunt) lives in our…
Originally posted 2018-06-28 18:19:05. I know some of you are wondering what happened. Well… my mama lost her fight with cancer. She had small cell lung cancer, one of the most aggressive I’m told. Her kidneys started failing and no matter what they did they didn’t gain traction in the right direction. I apologize as I just can’t tell the story just. Too soon. But we just picked up the dogs from the kennel and…
Originally posted 2018-06-27 18:35:18. Oh how I miss my momma. I know she is no longer in pain. Cancer ravaged her little body twice and she beat it once. The 2nd time it tried but we aren’t sure what truly took her out. It was either her kidneys or the cancer. The cancer was just really aggressive. I love you momma…
Originally posted 2018-06-17 22:22:17. Please continue to pray for strength and healing. This is by far one of the hardest things I think I have dealt with in my life. It literally feels like my heart is being ripped out of my chest. Her kidneys just aren’t recovering from the kidney stones and they need to start chemotherapy now. I am watching my mother fight so much but did say if for some reason something…
A few nights ago I had a weird dream. For some reason I dreamt that my mother was murdered. I am not sure if it was because I had been watching some of those shows where they talk about someone was murdered and they were trying to resolve it years later or not. In my dream I went to my mothers house. I will add that I have not been to my mothers house since…
Originally posted 2018-06-15 14:38:27. This will be the hardest thing I have ever done. I have to somehow suppress the expression on my face because Dusty is watching me like a hawk. He knows something is up. This hurts so much. I don’t know how to let go of my mother. I don’t know how to live my life without her. I don’t know how I will ever explain it to Dusty. I pray to…
Originally posted 2018-06-12 13:09:01. I need your prayers, miracles. My heart hurts and I just can’t do life without my momma. She is in the fight for life and I will likely not be on social media much. Her kidneys took a hit and need to heal in order for them to do any chemo or radiation. Cancer is in her liver and lungs and they need to see if it is in her brain…
Originally posted 2018-06-06 11:13:07. As I sit here looking of inspiration for each keystroke I hold back tears. The normal daily routine of getting my son up to take his medications doesn’t stop for anything. Hearing the words in my head over and over… CANCER… My mother has beaten colorectal cancer just a few years ago. Her body still trying to recover from the chemo and radiation. Then having to have her arteries bypassed…
Originally posted 2019-02-26 09:06:40. She will be missed. My husband’s side kick, devil dog. Charlie you are no longer hurting. Run over that rainbow bridge til your hearts full of joy knowing the love and life you brought to this family. We can’t thank you enough for your presence. We hope you understand why we didn’t want you to suffer anymore. You no longer wagged your tail at dad’s presence. When dad asked if you…
Originally posted 2019-02-25 08:58:22. We unfortunately have to put her to sleep. The cancer – tumor is just ravaging her poor little body. We had planned on taking her to nc state oncology for her appointment but she can’t do anything for herself anymore. We tried to get her up but she just stands there leaning against you. No wagging her tail no nothing. She will definitely be missed. She was the alpha in this…