This so hard
Please continue to pray for strength and healing. This is by far one of the hardest things I think I have dealt with in my life. It literally feels like my heart is being ripped out of my chest.
Her kidneys just aren’t recovering from the kidney stones and they need to start chemotherapy now. I am watching my mother fight so much but did say if for some reason something goes wrong she does not want to be resuscitated.
I can’t watch my momma die. My bio father was different, somewhat painful, but totally on a whole other level.
We had to come home to handle the dogs and medications but I am so scared.
Please pray for my momma, I don’t want her to go through all this pain but I don’t want her leaving me either.
I pray for guidance, strength, and understanding because I know when that day comes I still won’t understand why my momma. ❤
Originally posted 2018-06-17 22:22:17.